"I'll be home for Christmas. You can count on me."

It feels so good to finally be home! I can't believe that I actually have a whole month to myself! Awesomeness! I can't wait to kick back, relax, and get a much deserved mani/pedi after all those greuling finals! Although, I have to admit, I really do miss my fair city. I mean, even before I left 27th Street I started getting really upset. And then, while watching the city skyline fad away, it really hit me. I won't be going back for a whole month. I guess I've really grown attached to NYC. Sigh. I think a nice tall glass of skim milk and Oreo cookies would really cheer me up right now! Au revoir, loves!

Yay! The semester's finally over!

So, I'm officially on winter break! My fashion industry final went very well, and I just finished clearing the room. I'm so happy to be going home in a few hours! The room looks so empty without anything on the floor. Plus, I took my Panic poster down to take home because you know I cannot live without that to wake up to for a whole month! LOL! Anyways, I think I'm going to get some lunch before my parents get here. To tell you the truth, though, I am not looking forward to packing the car! Au revoir, loves!

Oh, I am good.

I just fit half of my closet in my small suitcase. Let's see if anyone else can do that! LOL! So, today was kind of a cleaning day. I swept the room, did my sheets, and just straightened everything up. I cannot wait to go home tomorrow afternoon! I have one more final to study for tonight, and then I am home-free! Okay, I should get back to packing/studying/saying goodbye because tomorrow is going to be busy, busy, busy! Au revoir, loves!

Why does this city have to be so darn big?!

So, someone very important to me is in NYC right now as we speak and I would LOVE to "accidentally" bump into him. Sadly, this city is so immense that it would be utterly impossible! Grr! Anyways, I'm finally done with math! I had the second part of the final a few hours ago, and I think it went well. Hopefully I did great on the first part as well! I only have two more days until I can finally go home! Tomorrow is gonna be kind of boring. I have a lot of cleaning to do and packing and more studying for my last final on Thursday. I can't wait till this week is finally over! Au revoir, loves!

Finals are awful.

So, I feel like I haven't been on here in years. Actually, I feel like I haven't had a life in years because of finals. I absolutely hate them. Luckily, I only have two more, and then I am home free for a whole month. I can't wait to be home. Although I love my city and everything that it has to offer, there is nothing quite like being at home. I miss lounging on my big, comfy couch, sipping hot tea and snuggling with my kitty. I miss singing at the top of my lungs in the shower every day. I miss waking up whenever I feel like it. I cannot wait till Thursday when I finally get to do all that stuff and more once again. Also, Christmas is coming soon, and I'm very excited. Three more days!! Just three more days. Au revoir, loves.

I'm nineteen!

So, today was my birthday, but unfortunately, I had to spend the majority of it studying for finals! Total bummer, I know, but at least I'm getting closer to winter break! Five more days! Yay! I'm so excited! I really need that big break. Okay, well, I should get back to studying for part one of my math final tomorrow. Au revoir, loves!

Seven more days!!

I had such a fun and relaxing weekend. Well, except for last night because my heart was pounding so fast due to that extremely intense Desperate Housewives episode! OMG! I cannot believe that I have to wait until January to find out who got killed in the plane crash. However, I have a pretty good idea about what will happen. I believe that Mona is DEFINITELY dead because we saw her get swooped up by the wing of the plane. I was really happy about that because she deserved it for what she was trying to do to Angie. Anyways, as for the rest of Wisteria Lane, Bree simply cannot be dead because she is one of the main characters. I don't think it was Orson that was killed, but rather Karl. I will be so upset if I am right about that because I really liked Karl and Bree together! I also think that Lynette is going to either lose one or both babies, or they are going to be severely harmed because of how she saved Celia. Ahhh! I can't wait till January! Anyways, aside from that, I absolutely adore my early birthday gift from my parents and I cannot wait to wear it! It is the most adorable Betsey dress that I've ever seen! Okay, well, I have to study for my advertising final tomorrow. I have only seven days left until I'm free for a whole month! Au revoir, loves!

Man, this week went by fast!

I'm so glad that I get to go home tomorrow! Although this week has gone by super quick, it doesn't mean that it wasn't jam-packed with work. I'm getting such a headache trying to get through all this reading and studying for my finals next week! Ugh! I just want it to be Christmas already! I'm so excited to just go home tomorrow, listen to Christmas music all weekend, finish decorating the house, and just relax before I go absolute insane next week! Au revoir, loves!

Ten more days!

So, advertising was cancelled tonight for the very first time. And, surprisingly, I'm very pissed off. Next Tuesday is our final, and I have had no review for it! I really hope my professor posts a study guide, or I'm definitely screwed! Ugh! I just can't believe that I have only ten days left in the semester. It seems like I just moved in yesterday! Au revoir, loves!

So much to catch up on!

Oh, my God! I feel like I haven't been on here in so long! So much has happened on this amazing weekend that I don't know where to start! First of all, I think it went by way too fast. I mean, I feel like yesterday was Thanksgiving! But, you know what they say: time flies when you're having fun! Anyways, let's start with Thanksgiving. I got up really early because my parents came up to see the Macy's Parade. I was so excited because I've always wanted to see it, and I have to say, it was absolutely amazing and so much fun! Those balloons are ginormous in real life! So, after that was over, we went home to my uncle's house for dinner. It was so nice to see my girls and just fool around and act like a goof with them! I've missed that so much! We had so much fun!

Friday was also a lot of fun. As you all know, it was Black Friday, and my mom, Meesh, her best friend, and I decided to go to King of Prussia Mall to take advantage of all the awesome deals and steals! Unfortunately, none of us bought a thing! Oh, well! It was just really fun and exhilarating to face the massive crowd and just go window-shopping!

Saturday was AMAZING! I got together with my two besties at the mall! It was so much fun because I haven't seen them in so long! It was my Mer-Mer's nineteenth birthday, and we just got together to laugh, shop, and just let off some steam! I cannot wait to see them again!

Sunday was just a laid-back kind of day. I started putting Christmas decorations up at home, and I was listening to Christmas music all day long! I can't wait for my winter break! I only have eleven more days! Desperate Housewives was also really good last night, and I can't wait to see what happens next week! Supposedly, there's going to be a plane crash on Wisteria Lane, and someone is going to die. I hate being kept in suspense! Okay, I should start doing my homework now. Au revoir, loves!

Yay!

I'm finally on Thanksgiving break! Yay! I cannot wait for tomorrow! I have to get up super early because I'm finally going to see the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade! I'm so excited! I've always wanted to go to it! I'll have to take tons of pictures! Anyways, today seemed to go by super slow. I'm so glad it's finally over! It is totally dead here in the dorm and I'm kinda freaked out by it. Tomorrow morning can't come soon enough! Okay, well I still have to pack and get ready for bed because I have a super long day tomorrow! Au revoir, loves!

ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!

So, I only have two classes to get through tomorrow until I'm officially on Thanksgiving break! I'm so glad that I got all my work out of the way so I can truly relax for the long weekend! Anyways, today was pretty good. I finally presented my advertising project with my group and I am so glad that I don't have to worry about that anymore! Okay, well, I'm gonna turn in a little earlier tonight. I can't wait till Thursday! Au revoir, loves!

Two more days!

Yay! It's almost time for Thanksgiving break, and I'm so excited! I can't wait to go home, eat some delish mashed sweet potatoes, and play with my girls! Also, not having to worry about work for a few days is always a plus! Anyways, today was good. It went by pretty quickly. My business class was cancelled, so I guess that's why. Tomorrow I have to present my advertising project with my group, and I really can't wait to get it over with! Au revoir, loves!

God, I wish I had money!

So, today I went for another lovely stroll around my city to some of my fave stores, and I really wish I was rich! LOL! I saw so many really cute things at Bendel's, Bloomie's, Saks, and Juicy. Sigh. Anyways, today was really fun. I really don't feel like going to class this week because now I'm just in the holiday mood because of all the gorgeous store windows and Christmas music! I can't wait for Thanksgiving break this week! Au revoir, loves!

"In the city of blinding lights."

So, on my way out of Starbucks a few hours ago, I looked behind me at Times Square. I must say, no matter how many times I've seen it, its beauty still strikes me in a way that I can't even begin to explain. I feel so lucky to live in this gorgeous city, and I wouldn't trade it for anything else in the entire world. Anyways, aside from that, I feel like I've had another very productive day. I was able to work on my advertising project with my "group" and we are totally finished with it. It just ticks me and my partner off that the rest of our group blew us off not once, not twice, but THREE TIMES!!! No phone call, no email, they just didn't show up. Ugh! It just makes me so mad that they will get the same amount of credit as us when they really didn't do anything! Au revoir, loves.

I. Am. Exhausted.

So, I got up this morning at the TOTALLY UNGODLY hour of five a.m. I got dressed, grabbed my computer, and walked over to Starbucks. I am so glad I did. I registered for classes, and it went so much smoother than I thought it would. I am so happy that it is done and over with and I really do love my schedule for next semester...well, except for statistics. Anyways, aside from that, I feel like I got a lot done today. Laundry? Check. Clean the room? Check. Homework...halfway there! I am also really, really, really happy that Thanksgiving break is less than a week away. I cannot wait to relax! Au revoir, loves.

Phew! Almost had a mini heart attack there!

Finally! Someone answered the phone! I've been trying to call home all day and no one has been answering until now! I talked to my mom earlier today and she said that she was with my grandma in the hospital. So, of course, all the worst-case scenarios are running through my mind. I've been calling home, my mom's phone, my Daddy's phone, and my grandma's house all night and no answer. I am so relieved to have finally been told what's going on! My grandma will be okay, thank God, and I can rest easy tonight. Anyways, aside from that, I finally got that business test over with and it went pretty smoothly. This weekend won't be much fun for me because I have to go through the torture of registering for spring semester classes on Friday, and I have piles of work for the rest of the weekend. Thanksgiving break can't come soon enough! Au revoir, loves!

Advertising actually had a dash of fun in it today.

We were told to bring in an example of a sales promotion, and it was really interesting to hear about all the different types of discounts and sales from a ton of different stores! Next week shouldn't be too bad either because everyone is supposed to present their final project. My group and I have been working super hard on ours and we are putting the finishing touches on it this Friday. I really love the way it's turning out! Anyways, today was pretty okay. I just wish Thanksgiving break would hurry up and get here! Au revoir, loves!

I am so glad that this day is about to be over!

This has been one of the worst Mondays of my life! First, I could have slept a lot later instead of getting up at the un-Godly hour of six AM to catch a train because my English class was unexpectedly cancelled. Then, the business test that I've wasted my entire weekend studying for gets postponed until Wednesday! Grr! And, to top it all off, I still have a massive amount of work to do all this week! I truly cannot wait until Thanksgiving break. The only good thing that happened today was being able to go out and enjoy a little bit of my city with Meesh's best friend. I had a lot of fun with him! Okay, I'm going to go to bed and end this horrible day. Au revoir, loves!

A total waste of a weekend.

I am so mad right now. So, I went home Thursday night and expected to have an awesome weekend after working my butt off last week. Wrong! I had to cram pages and pages of useless business knowledge into my head all weekend for my test tonight. I wasn't even supposed to have one, but, unfortunately, there was a change of plan. I cannot wait to get it over with. Hopefully, this weekend will make up for it. I cannot wait for Thanksgiving break next week and Black Friday! Au revoir, loves!

Argh! So stressed out right now!

So, I am not looking forward to tonight at all. I have to study for a big fashion industry test AND a math test. I wouldn't mind so much if we weren't studying my least favorite thing in math: conversions. Ugh! And, now, I also have a business test to study for this weekend. I can't wait till Thanksgiving break. I am counting down the days! Au revoir, loves!

So totally stressed out!

Okay, so I really can't wait till this week is over! I have two really big tests on Thursday, and I don't know how I'm going to cram all that information into my head in such short notice! At least Thanksgiving and Christmas breaks are not that far off! Okay, well, I'm going to take a shower and start studying. Au revoir, loves.

I hate the fact that the weekend is over.

I had such a fun time this weekend that I was really sad to see it go. I really did not want to get up this morning, and don't even get me started on how I managed to finally get out of bed. I'm so glad that this day is over. It was just non-stop work all day. I'm really happy that I'm ahead in Excel though because I can just leave super early next week. Yay! Also, I finally got caught up on advertising, and I have never been happier to put that book of absolute torture away. Tomorrow should be good. I can sleep as long as my heart desires. However, there is that little blemish that rears its ugly head from 6:30 to 9:20. I'm really excited for Thanksgiving break. It should be here before I know it. Au revoir, loves!

I have fallen in love with Bendel's.

It felt so good to wander around my city today. I made a long trek up to Bloomie's, and then I did some window shopping on lovely Fifth. I finally had a chance to go into Bendel's, and I have completely fallen in love with it. They have some of the cutest accessories that I have every seen! I cannot wait to go back! Okay, well, I'm going to be getting to bed now because, unfortunately, I have class tomorrow. Boo! Au revoir, loves!

"Because I knew you, I have been changed for good."

Wow. I am still speechless. Wicked was such a great performance. I absolutely and truly adored it! Such beautiful songs, beautiful costumes, and beautiful sets. I would definitely jump at the chance of seeing it again, and I highly recommend it to everyone else! Also, Becco was absolutely delish as usual. But, I have never been so stuffed in my entire life! What a great day! Okay, well I'm going to go get a shower because I feel absolutely skuzzy after such a long day. Au revoir, loves!

A very productive day.

Wow, I feel like I was able to accomplish so much in this very short day. I gave the room a very thorough and much-needed cleaning and I was able to (finally) wash my sheets. I also caught up on all that pesky homework. Whew! Now I can just relax. It's kind of nice having this room to myself for the whole weekend. It can get lonely sometimes, but, on the other hand, you do have some time to yourself. And that's always a good thing. I'm so excited about Wicked tomorrow! I've wanted to see that musical for such a long time. I will let everyone know how I liked it tomorrow night. I'm also looking forward to din-din at my fave restaurant, Becco! Au revoir, loves!

Done for the week!

Yay! It's officially the weekend! Unfortunately, it won't be a very exciting one...except for Saturday. My uncle is finally taking me to see Wicked, and I'm really, really excited about that! Other than that, I'll just be catching up on homework and giving this room a much-needed cleaning. Sounds really fun, I know. Au revoir, loves.

"Time goes by so slowly."

I hate when you anticipate your big holiday break and then the weeks seem to take forever to go by! Anyways, I have only one more day in this week to get through, and then two whole weeks until Thanksgiving break. Ugh! I can't wait. Today was very busy and I have a lot of work to do tonight which I'm not looking forward to at all. Tomorrow should be better since I have my fave class to look forward to in the morning. Au revoir, loves.

Lazy Tuesday.

I love days like today. Days where I can just sleep in, relax, read Vogue, and listen to music. Then math and advertising have to come in and ruin everything! Anyways, today was pretty good. I was able to catch up on some much needed sleep, which I'll be thankful for later on tonight when I actually have to do homework. I can't wait for this weekend. I can't wait for Thanksgiving break. I can't wait for Christmas. This is around the time when I start experiencing what I like to call "Holidayitis." LOL! Au revoir, loves.

"You know you love me. XOXO, Gossip Girl."

Wow, what a fun night! I forgot how nice it is to just forget about my massive amounts of work for a couple of hours and just hang out with my friends. We got together for a Gossip Girl party tonight, and it was awesome. Sparkling pink lemonade, Oreos, and lots of laughter is my idea of a Monday night. Okay, well, I'm going to get ready for bed and get back to advertising. Joy. Au revoir, loves.

Oh, how fast a year goes by.

Today, it has been a year since my second PATD concert. It makes me so sad to think about it. I remember that night like it was yesterday. My uncle and I traveled to Philly to see my boys and it was a lot of fun. I remember buying my 'Reinvent Love' T-shirt, dancing and having fun in the front row, and refusing to take my general admission bracelet off until it came off on its own. I wish I could go back to that day and relive the moment one last time.

I am so tired and I am amazed that I didn't fall asleep reading that last advertising chapter.

So, I'm in my room trying to catch up on some homework. Thank God this week is almost done and I can go home tomorrow. I can't wait. Plus, it's supposed to clear up tomorrow, which will be a nice change of pace from all this rain we've been having. Okay, that's pretty much it for today. I have to finish up here, and then it's off to bed because I have to get up early tomorrow morning. Au revoir, loves.

Are they done cleaning the bathroom yet?

Okay, I absolutely hate it when the cleaning people come to clean the bathroom before I leave. I have to go so bad, and I have class in ten minutes! What a morning! Okay, I have to leave for English. Au revoir, loves.

P.S.~Kelts, your momma is in my prayers. Don't worry. She will get through this because she has amazing strength just like you. Fuck you, cancer. No one wants you in their life.

I hate multiple choice tests like that!

So, I just finished my advertising midterm a few hours ago, and I felt like I got every answer wrong. I know that I'm probably just paranoid, but it seemed like every question could have two answers! Oh well. I guess I'll just have to wait till next week to see how I did. Anyways, the rest of the day was pretty dull. Hopefully, tomorrow will be more worthwhile. Au revoir, loves.

I am not a happy camper right now.

Why? Well, one: it's raining outside, and that always puts me in a bad mood. Two: I am stuck in my room trying to cram two months worth of useless advertising knowledge into my brain. I cannot wait till this day is over!

"I got a rock."

Well, today went pretty well. Nothing really important or exciting happened, but it was a pretty good Monday. English class was fun because we got to do impromptu writing, which I love. Excel went better than I expected. We had a midterm which was open book and I got a chance to catch up with my spreadsheets. Business class was a bit boring, but then again, what can you expect from a lecture? I also started to get into the Halloween spirit today by watching some classics. The original "Halloween" still gives me the goosebumps even though I've seen it a billion times before, and I started watching the original "Friday the 13th," which is equally creepy. I hope to continue my horror moviethon throughout this week to get me pumped for Saturday night. I can't wait till Halloween! Okay, well, I have to do some homework, study for my advertising midterm tomorrow, and then go to bed. Au revoir, loves!

P.S.~Also watched "It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown" last night, and it is still as adorable as it was when I watched it when I was younger!

Back to the old grind.

So, I'm finally back in NYC after a very fun weekend. I got to relive my childhood by going to my fave pizza parlor that, miraculously, remains untouched in the old "Burg," I went shopping at one of my fave malls, and I got to just play and be goofy with some of my fave girls. It was a really good weekend. Anyway, I am glad to be back, but I am not looking forward to my advertising midterm on Tuesday. I really need to study for that. Thank God it's all going to be multiple choice! I'm very excited about Halloween this weekend! It's one of my fave holidays! I hope everyone else is equally excited! Au revoir, loves!

I want my Starbucks!

So, I walked out into the hallway this morning, and all I could smell was fresh-brewed Starbucks coffee. Yum! Now I am totally craving a cup. Anyways, I thankfully got a good night's rest last night, and I feel a little better this morning. I have my fashion industry class in a few minutes, math, and then I'm going home! Okay, I have to finish getting ready for class. Au revoir, loves.

No homework to keep me up late tonight!

Yes! I was able to finish all of my homework earlier today! I may have missed out on a much-needed nap and a trip to the Betsey Johnson sample sale, but it was really worth it. Okay, well, I'm not going to let this computer keep me up any later. I am going to get ready for bed and catch up on my Elle magazine. I'm still on the September issue, and October and November remain to be untouched! Au revoir, loves.

"It's almost Halloween."

So, last night was really creepy. After doing all my work and getting into bed, I decided to start celebrating Halloween. I watched a few old horror movies, like "He Knows You're Alone" and "Trilogy of Terror." Let me tell you, when I watched them as a little girl, I couldn't sleep for days. Last night was pretty much the same. I swear, those late 70s early 80s slasher movies really get to me sometimes. I do love this holiday, though. Anyways, I have to leave for English class in a few, and then, hopefully, I can sneak a nap in during my big break. Au revoir, loves.

Tuesday seems to come way too fast.

I can't believe it's already Tuesday again. I hate this day with a burning passion. I mean, sure, I love the fact that I get to sleep in, but my advertising class really puts a damper on an otherwise great day. I have it in a little less than an hour. It better go by fast today. Anyways, I just got done with a math test, and it was pretty easy. I never would have guess that math would have been my easiest subject here. Probably because it's a kindergarten-level. LOL! Okay, well, I'm gonna go back to my fashion industry reading, and then it's off to hell. Au revoir, loves.

I'm officially creeped out.

So, I'm laying in my bed watching early 80s slasher movies. I am really scared right now! If you want a good Halloween movie suggestion, mine is "He Knows You're Alone." Me and my mom watch that together all the time, and it still gets us! LOL! Anyways, today was pretty good. My business class was canceled, but I ended up almost ripping my hair out in Excel! Ugh! I really didn't sleep well last night, so I'm hoping tonight will be better. At least I don't have class till 4:10 tomorrow. Au revoir, loves.

"Back where I'm known. Back in my own very small pond."

So, I'm back in my city after being home all weekend. It was a lot of fun, and I got to play with my girls today which was fun. Also, the surprise for my roomie went completely fantastic, and she was really happy! Hopefully, this will be an easy week. I have an English midterm tomorrow which I am not looking forward to at all, but the rest of the week is pretty much dead. Okay, I have to go download new songs, study, and then go to sleep. Au revoir, loves.

"And breath. Just breath."

Oh. My. God. What a day I've had. I don't think I stopped to catch my breath even once today. So, the day started out just like any other typical Wednesday. I got up, got ready, and went to English class. But, after that, I can't even explain it. See, my roommate's birthday is this Saturday, and her boyfriend is coming up tomorrow to surprise her. I know! Isn't that the most sweetest thing in the world? Anyway, so I've been talking to him, and we have it all planned out. I had to get an extended visitor's pass from residential life, which my roommate has to hand in on Friday. I have to sign her boyfriend into our building tomorrow and... SURPRISE! I can't wait to see her face! Anyways, so after that, I got lunch. Then, I had to study for a really intense business test which took me three hours! Ugh! I have never tried to fit so much useless information into my head before! So, I had the test at 5:10, and I'm crossing my fingers that I passed because it was really hard! Then, I had to meet my partner for our Christian Lacroix project, which is due tomorrow. I really like how it all turned out, though. The paper is excellent, and the powerpoint is so much fun to explain. And, now, I'm here. Phew! What a crazy-hectic day! I cannot wait to go home tomorrow and snuggle on the couch with my kitty eating Chinese food. Yum! Au revoir, loves!

Thank God that's over!

So, I just got out of advertising a few minutes ago, and I could not be happier! That class just seems to drag on because I find it so boring! Anyway, aside from that, today was pretty good. I got a lot of work done on the powerpoint, and my partner just sent me the rough draft of the research paper and it looks awesome! It's so much more fun to do a project when you actually enjoy the subject! So, I have a lot of studying to do tonight for my business test tomorrow. I'm actually really nervous to take it because there is a lot of information! I hope I do well! Keep your fingers crossed! Au revoir, loves!

P.S.~ Happy Birthday, Mama! I can't wait to see you this weekend so we can get our manis and pedis! It's on me!

Upside: I get to sleep in tomorrow. Downside: Advertising.

I can't believe tomorrow is Tuesday. Didn't I just have advertising, like, yesterday? Ugh! I hate that class with a burning passion! Anyways, today went pretty smoothly. I just have a massive business test on Wednesday that I have to study for. I can't believe it's midterm time already! I feel like I just got here! Okay, well, I'm going to hop in the shower and then go to bed because I am exhausted! Au revoir, loves!

"All work and no play makes for a dully, dully day."

Yes, that is a "Lizzie McGuire reference! Even though I'm eighteen now and in my first year of college, I still love it! I'm so glad Disney is starting to play the reruns again! Anyway, what a dull, dull Sunday! This is what I did all day: work. Ugh. I can't believe tomorrow is already Monday! This weekend went by way too fast. I can't wait to go home this weekend! Homecoming! Hopefully, this week will go by really fast. My partner and I did some more on our Christian Lacroix project today, and it's coming together really well! I can't wait to present it with her on Thursday! One more thing: Desperate Housewives today was amazing! I can't wait to see what'll happen next! Okay, I'm about to get in the shower and then go to bed. Au revoir, loves!

Oh, what a night!

Wow! I really needed that day out and about in my city! I've been so tired of being cooped up on this one little street all week, and it just felt amazing to get out and walk around. Although, my feet are still killing me! Anyways, it was a really fun day! My parents, Meesh, and hr BFF all came up here, and we just spent the whole day shopping! That's my kind of Saturday! Also, it was really nice to have REAL food for a change! Okay, well, i'm just gonna cuddle up in bed, read some Elle, and dread having to do more work tomorrow! Au revoir, loves!

An uneventful, overcast day.

Well, I cannot wait till tomorrow. After being cooped up in the dorm all day doing massive amounts of work, I'm definitely ready to get out of here! I can't wait to truly be in the city tomorrow. Shopping, having fun, and just walking around will really boost my mood. At least I feel like I got a lot accomplished today. My English research paper is finished, I just finished my stock project a little while ago, and now I'm about to dive into advertising. Fun, I know. Au revoir, loves.

P.S.~ Meesh, I can smell Abercrombie from here!

On the verge of tears again.

I didn't realize just how much I miss my family until this afternoon. Daddy called me and left a message, and while I was listening to it, I got a lump in my throat. He was telling me how much he misses me and that he loves me and that he thinks of me every time he has to work up this way. It was so adorably sweet! I miss him and my mom so much! That's why I can't wait until Saturday when they come up here to spend the day with me. Meesh and her BFF are also coming, so it should be really fun! Anyways, besides that, today was good. I did really well on both of my tests, and I'm really glad this week's over! I have a lot of work to do tomorrow, though! Au revoir, loves.

My feet ache to do pas de chats.

What happened to my Wednesdays? I used to look forward to them because I could relieve the stress of school and life through dance. I loved every minute of that hour and fifteen minute class. I really do miss it. The feel of the smooth barre beneath my hand. The sound of my pointe shoes piqueing across the floor. The ability to let go and just feel the music flowing through me. I'm holding one of my ballet slippers as we speak, and it is bringing tears to my eyes. I love this little canvas shoe with all my heart. The wear and tear shown on the bottom of it only strengthens my desire to put it on and just do a single pirouette. Dance was a big part of my life and I wish it still was. What I would give to just lose myself in that dance studio one more time. Au revoir, loves.

No more math!

I really hate my Tuesdays! I thought I would love not going to class until 4:10, but I really don't. I would rather get my classes over with early on in the day so I can have the rest of the day to myself. My three-hour advertising class at 6:30 doesn't help, either. Anyways, I have tons of work to do on Friday and Sunday and I am not looking forward to it at all. However, I am very excited for Saturday! It should be so much fun! Au revoir, loves!

Oh, one more thing.

To the guy that looked a lot like Brendon in Houlihan's on Saturday night: call me! LOL! Now, why can't a guy like THAT ask for my number instead of these freaks around here? That's all.

I've got a long night ahead of me.

So, I'm in my dorm room now getting ready for bed. However, I won't be going to sleep anytime soon. I have tons of stuff to do. Hopefully I'll at least make a dent in the pile of work before me. Ugh! Anyways, I'm so happy that Monday is over with. All I have to do is get through that grueling advertising class tomorrow night, and the rest of the week should go by quickly. I can't wait until Saturday. Au revoir, loves!

Who wants to go to class for me?

Ugh, I really hate my Mondays. I have a full day today. I'm leaving for English in a few minutes, and then I have Excel, and then my fashion business practices class. This weekend went by way too fast. Au revoir, loves.

"Kindness is just love with its work boots on!"

Wow! I just watched the new 'Desperate Housewives,' and I can tell that this season is going to be really good! Other than that, I just got back in my fair city and I am really happy. I feel tons better than last week, and I had such a good time this weekend! I can't wait until this Saturday when my fam is coming up here to spend the day with me instead of the other way around! I am so sick of the train! LOL! So, I guess I'm gonna get ready for bed now and finish my reading for English. Au revoir, loves.

~P.S: Meesh, you and B should def come up this weekend too! We'll have tons of fun together. Mom said that she would text you sometime this week so keep an eye out! Love ya!

Goodbye, flip-flops.

Summer is now officially over for me. I went outside today into the brisk NYC air and instantly started shivering! Now, don't get me wrong! I adore the city during the fall, but today was rediculous! October is here to stay. I'm kind of excited, though! I get to see the gorgeous leaves in Central Park change colors, walk down the street in the cutest scarves and hats, and go to awesome Halloween parties! I already picked out my costume! I think I would look absolutely adorable as a Care Bear! Fall in New York City. Is there anything more romantic? Oh, right. Christmastime! Au revoir, loves!

Drained beyond belief.

Thank God tomorrow is Thursday. This has been one of the most busiest weeks of my life. On top of being tired and not being able to move, I felt like I could barely catch a break this week. I have done so much work, and I feel like it keeps piling on! I've had endless papers, and meetings, and quizzes, and Excel spreadsheets! Ugh! I'm kinda glad to be going home tomorrow because I really need a break. Anyways, I have to finish getting ready for bed because I have a fashion vocab quiz tomorrow that I have yet to study for and we are having a floor meeting at eleven. See what I mean?! No room to breath! Au revoir, loves!

P.S.~ To the guy on my street this afternoon, no you cannot call me sometime. Ew! I am getting really sick of these New York lowlifes! But, everything else I love!

I'm about to fall asleep on this desk!

Math class ended an hour early. Yay! Still, I wish advertising could be canceled tonight. I am absolutely exhausted for some reason and I really don't feel like sitting there, bored out of my mind for three hours. Oh, well. I can't wait for it to be over so I could just crawl into bed and sleep. Nothing really exciting happened today. I'll keep you posted when something does. Au revoir, loves.

"Cause I am barely breathing, and I can't find the air"

So, right now I am on a train on my way back to my city. I had a lot of fun this weekend, but I'm glad to go back. Every time I leave, I feel like I am forgetting something when I'm really not. I guess I just don't feel the same without the taxi horns and ambulances lulling me to sleep at night, the bright lights of Times Square, and the peace and serenity of Madison Square Park. I can't wait to get back. I see the lights already, and they are beautiful. Anyways, my goal is to just get home, get settled, and go to sleep because I'm not really feeling that well. I hope I didn't catch Mom's cold! Au revoir, loves.

My favorite "lane" is at it again!

Desperate Housewives started tonight! I was so excited! Such a great episode! Although, it does make me sad to realize that I won't be able to talk to my Tay-Tay about it tomorrow morning like we used to do at school. That always made my Mondays a lot brighter. I miss you, love! So, the AC trip didn't happen today on account of this lovely weather. I'm a bit sad but it's okay. I'm so excited to go back to NYC tomorrow. Although I love being at home and spending time with my family, New York just makes me feel a hundred times better from the moment I step off the train. Okay, well, I'm about to get ready for bed and catch up on my magazines. Hang in there, Meesh! I can't wait to spend time with you on Saturday! We'll have tons of fun! Au revoir, loves!

Rain, flips, and unhealthy food.

None of that stuff sounds fun, right? Wrong! Today was the Italian-American fest and it was so much fun! I met Meesh and her bestest friend, and we had a blast together! The food was yummy, the Zipper was awesome, and I didn't even care that my hair was getting wet...well, maybe a little! Anyways, we're supposed to go to AC tomorrow and i'm just hoping that they can come with us. It wouldn't be the same without them! Au revoir, loves.

"Blackbird fly into the light of the dark, black night."

So, I have to leave really soon to catch my train home. I am so hungry though! And, I don't have time to stop at Starbucks! Ugh! Anyways, I'm very excited for this weekend! I have a lot of fun things to do and I can finally relax a little bit! Bonus: California Pizza Kitchen tonight! I can already taste my delish mushroom raviolis! Okay, I must be going now! Au revoir, loves!

It felt so good to get out and shop!

Finally! I caught a break to get out of this room for a while and wander around my city! I went to Forever 21, and I found some awesome looks. Bonus: all under $100! And, there was a flea market at our school today, and I found some of the cutest jewelry and a really cool pair of sunglasses! Today was absolutely awesome. Anyway, I still have some homework to do tonight and then I have to pack because I'm planning to take the train home before noon tomorrow. Okay, I better get started now because I am exhausted! Au revoir, loves!

"Does it take your breath away, and you feel yourself suffocating?"

So, I have so much work to do. I'm finally finished with my advertising homework, and now I'm moving on to English. After that, I still have to study for my test tomorrow on the decades of fashion. It should be fun though! I hope tomorrow goes well. I have my fave class from 9:10 till 12, and then I have math from 2:10 to 4. It should be a quick day. My meeting was canceled YET AGAIN on Friday, so I had to reschedule that. I'm still coming home Friday morning though, because tomorrow I have to stop in Forever 21 to do a little fall shopping! I'm excited! Okay, I should get back to my homework now before I end up going to bed really late. Au revoir, loves!

It can't be that hard!

So, another one of my boys is here in my fair city! This time, it's RyRo! Darling, come find me and we'll grab a bite at Olive Garden! Anyways, aside from that, yesterday seemed like the longest day of my life. I didn't have class until 4:10, which is great. Math was fine. We're learning about how to multiply, divide, add, and subtract fractions. Yeah. But, advertising class seemed to never end! Maybe it's because I have it from 6:30 to 9:20! I think I made a big mistake taking a night class. Okay, that's all for now, loves! I must be getting to English soon! A bientot!

Easy Monday=Easy Week!

Wow. I cannot believe my luck today! So, I knew that my English class was canceled today since last week, so I thought it would be really nice to have an extra day to sleep late. So, I did. 2:10 rolls around and I am making my way to my Excel class when I am stopped in front of the building and informed that that too was canceled! I was so ecstatic. All I had to do today was attend my fashion business practices class, and that absolutely flew by. I was able to catch up on all my homework, and now I can just relax because classes don't start for me until 4:10 tomorrow! Yay! Ta, ta for now, loves!

So, this is college life.

I am now sitting in my dorm room, bored out of my mind. I just did a load of laundry and am finishing up some homework. And to think, I never imagined myself being bored in NYC!

"And this calls for a toast so pour the champagne!"

So, the wedding on Saturday was absolutely gorgeous! Love, you looked so beautiful and your dress was bangin'! I have never eaten so much food in my entire life! Let's talk about the cocktail hour. If I didn't know any better, I would have thought that that was the actual dinner because there was so much food! It was all delish, but OMJ! I think I gained ten pounds! Aside from the food, the whole reception was tons of fun! I danced, I attempted to catch the bouquet, and I cringed at my parents slow dancing! It was a really fun night! And, Meesh, don't worry! Your reading was excellent! You didn't stumble once! Oh, and one more thing. I am now totally addicted to champagne. Yum!

Daddy!

So, Friday was my Daddy's 49th birthday! I told you I had tons of birthdays in September. Okay, on the count of three. One, two, three!
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday, dear Daddy
Happy Birthday to you!

Hope you loved your tie! You looked absolutely fantabulous in it at the wedding! I love you!

Well, hello, old man!

Wow! There are so many birthdays in September! Today, the lovable Mr. Jon Walker turns 24! You certainly are getting up there, darling! Just kidding! Here we go!

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday, dear JWalk
Happy Birthday to you!

Hope you have a fantabulous day, love! Okay, I have to be leaving soon for my fashion class and I am so excited to be going home tonight! Two big weddings on Saturday! Au revoir, loves!

Ew.

So, one part of my college experience is now behind me. It was the early morning fire drill. So, I just woke up and I just got done straightening my hair when this really loud and obnoxious buzzing started. I freaked out when I heard the guards telling us all to get out of the building. So, I through on some jeans, grabbed my bag, and bolted out of there! After what felt like an eternity of standing on the sidewalk looking like hell, they finally let us in. That was definitely not my idea of a 'good morning.' Okay, I have to get my butt to English right now. Au revoir, loves!

Sukie!

I almost forgot to mention something super important! Yesterday was my bestest friend Sukie's 18th birthday! So, please join me in a belated birthday song.

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday dear Sukie,
Happy birthday to you!

Hope you had an awesome time you legal eagle! I'm definitely looking forward for our in-the-works-shopping-spree-around-NYC! Love ya lots!

My city shines a little less brightly now.

They're gone. Believe me, I tried to "accidentally" run into them, but it's kinda impossible in this amazing city! I'm not that upset though because I know that they will come again (even though a certain someone hates this incredible place!) and I will have many opportunities to see them. Besides that, this week has been going pretty smoothly. I just have a TON of reading to do tonight. I really just wan to go to sleep, but I know that will only put me further behind. Okay, I better get started! Au revoir, loves!

"In a city of millions..."

So, I totally cannot wait till classes are over today because I have much more important things to do! My boys are in my city and I am determined to "run into them." I know that seems impossible in this huge city, but I don't care. I am persistent!

Some "best friend!"

So, when I got back to my room after getting off the train this afternoon, I text my bff to let him know that I was home and to make sure that we were still on for the VMAs. He texted me back and said that he didn't think so because he wasn't feeling so well. I was a bit disappointed, but I wasn't mad because my boys weren't even there, so I really had no reason to go anyway. By the way, they are here now, and believe me, I will keep a sharp eye out for them! Anyway, I decided to quickly run over to Starbucks so I could get a sandwich since the cafeteria was closed. Well, as I was walking back to campus, who do I see leaving? My so-called bff! He was all dressed up and on his way out! He didn't see me though, and I'm kinda glad cause I would've killed him! I don't know why he would lie to me and tell me he was sick when he knew that we had plans! I don't know...maybe I'm overreacting, but I am definitely not happy with someone right now.

The stars align...

So, I'm finally back in NYC and it is a very important night tonight! The VMAs are being held at Radio City Music Hall, and my boys are going to be there! I'm so excited! In a little bit, me and a few friends are going down there to see if we can catch a glimpse of the action! I'll keep you posted! Au revoir, loves!

It's Fashion's Night Out and, unfortunately, my night in.

Today has had it's ups and downs so far. My alarm woke me up at 7:30 like I told it to. So, I woke up and I decided that I could sleep until eight since my class didn't start till 9:10. I fall asleep...and I don't wake up again until 8:35! I started freaking out! I think that that was the fastest I've ever gotten dressed, straightened my hair, did my makeup, and brushed my teeth because I left my dorm at 8:55! So, I got to class on time (thank God!) and we were assigned our designer for our research paper! I got Monsieur Christian Lacroix and I am really excited to get started! I knew this would be my favorite class! I'm going home tonight because I have to be in Philly tomorrow morning, so that means I will be missing out on Fashion's Night Out. You don't understand how totally bummed out I am about that! Grr! At least I have my brand new Juicy tote bag waiting for me when I get home. Okay, I have to go to math in an hour and then it's New Jersey, here I come. Yay! Not! Au revoir, loves!

Busy day.

Wow, I'm exhausted! I don't think I sat down once today except for homework! I'm going home tomorrow and I just had so much I had to catch up on. My laundry was piling up so I finally got that done. Now I am gradually lowering the stack of homework that is laying in front of me! No one said college life would be easy. Anyways, I'm kinda bummed out because I'm going to miss Fashion's Night Out tomorrow! If you live in NYC, you should definitely check it out! All the stores are open until 11 p.m., and most of them are throwing hugh bashes! Ms. Gela Nash-Taylor will be at Juicy Couture, Betsey Johnson is having hairstylists and Stila makeup artists at her stores, and did I mention the free goodie bags?! I envy whoever gets to partake in this magical event! Okay, I have to go get a shower and attempt to go to bed early because I have a class at 9:10 tomorrow morning! Au revoir, loves!

An unusually boring day here in the city.

So, I just got back from my advertising class about an hour ago and I am kinda exhausted. I woke up earlier than I had to this morning and I just couldn't fall back asleep. Class didn't start until 4:10 and I was able to finish my English paper. I think I did a pretty good job on it. Right now, I'm working on fashion business practices homework and then it's off to bed. Tomorrow should be better since I don't have a late class. My floor is a mess right now so I'm gonna do some sweeping! Au revoir, loves!

"It's up to you, New York, New York!"

So, I'm finally back in my city! I am so happy to hear the cars outside my window again! It was a fun Labor Day weekend, and tomorrow it's back to the books. I'm so glad I don't have class until four, though. Anyhoo, it's a short week this week so it should be good. Ta-ta for now, loves!

"I wouldn't change one second of our life together."

So, I finally saw The Time Traveler's Wife today and it was beyond amazing! Rachel McAdams and Eric Bana were so great as Clare and Henry. It really did the book justice and I think everyone should see it. The previews were also amazing. I have so many movies i absolutely have to see. The Lovely Bones looks great, but I really want to read the book first. New York, I Love You, Amelia, Coco Before Chanel, and Taking Woodstock are definitely on my must-see list as well! Anyways, I also had my uncle's picnic today so I got to see my girls! It ws so much fun! Well, tomorrow it's back to NYC for me...yay! I miss my city already! Ta-ta for now, loves!

Under the sea.

So, today I went to the beach for the last time this summer. I know. I almost cried too. It's so sad that summer's officially over! It went by so quickly this year! Anyhoo, it was really fun and I had a blast with Meesh and her BFF. I finally found some seashells too! I was so excited! So, tomorrow I'm finally going to see The Time Traveler's Wife and I'm excited. I hope it's half as good as the book was. I also have my uncle's picnic so I'll get to see my girls! Okay, well, I can barely keep my eyes open so I guess it's ta-ta for now, loves.

Delivery...

So, I'm sitting in my room waiting for a package. I can' leave until it gets here. It better get here soon because I dread taking a rush hour train. Anyways, I'm packing and then hopefully my BFF will not get so much work so we can go to Juicy. I really need that big tote bag. I'm kinda hungry too so I'm gonna go get some lunch while I'm waiting. Au revoir, loves!

Am I really that dumb?

Don't answer that. But, not that I'm complaining, but I don't think I should be this low in math. Today we literally learned about even, odd, and prime numbers. I took pre-calc last semester! I kind of don't mind it though because it's an easy class and we don't get a lot of work, but it kind of ticks me off that it offers no credits. So, I will have to take an extra class next semester, which would be statistics. I'm not looking forward to that at all! But, anyways, I am officially done for the week and Monday is Labor Day so we have off! I'm going home and I am looking forward to my momma's oven fried chicken parmagiana, seeing my girls, and going to the beach with Meesh! Ta-ta for now, my lovelies!

P.S.- My fashion class this morning was soooo fun! Our teacher is really nice, she's worked in the business for a long time, and we get to do a presentation on a designer! I am so looking forward to that!

P.P.S.- Miss KC is back in NYC so hopefully I will spot her sooner or later! I'll keep you guys posted!

I have not seen the city for three days and I live in it.

I know I shouldn't be complaining, but I've had so much work this week and it's beginning to pile up already! I just want to explore my city! It's so frustrating because all day I can hear the people and the cars but I never SEE any of it! Hopefully I get it all done really soon because I really want to walk on the Bridge, window shop on Fifth, brave the subway, and get some Starbucks!

Twenty-two... twenty-three...

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday dear Spencer,
Happy birthday to you!

*and belated, but not forgotten*

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday dear Ryan,
Happy birthday to you!

So, aside from two very important birthdays, this week has been jam-packed for me! I started classes on Monday and they are not as bad as I thought they would be. Don't get me wrong, there is a lot of work involved, but they are actually fun! I love my English class because there is a lot of creative writing involved, which I adore! My math class makes me feel like I am back in grade school because it is a refresher course on long division, long multiplication, long subtraction, and long addition... without the use of a calculator. Duh-duh-duh! No, but it's not bad. And I absolutely love my core classes about fashion and advertising! They are so fun! Let's hope I feel the same way next week! Au revoir, loves!

"Home is where the heart is..."

Yay! It's finally Friday and I am going home for the weekend! I'm so excited to see my family and especially my kitty cat! I can't wait! Anyways, yesterday was really fun but really scary at the same time. Me and a few of my friends took the subway down to Canal Street to do a little "knock-off shopping." Of course, we had no luck! I just think it's so funny how the people selling bags and watches whisper to you under their breath as you walk by designer names. It's so shady! Okay, well, I have to get ready and packed so I will ttyl! Au revoir, loves!

Thank God for razors with built-in shaving cream!

So, today was super fun! After all my meetings were done, me and a couple of friends decided to hop a subway train (I'm starting to like those things!) to Fifth Avenue to do a little window shopping. After that, we went to dinner at a fun diner with aspiring Broadway actors and actresses as waiters and waitresses! They sing show tunes to you! It was a totally fun day! So, when I got back home, I, of course, felt dirty and disgusting so I hopped in the shower. All I have to say is I'm so glad I don't need shaving cream! Those showers are so small that you can hardly move in there! Okay, well, I'm totally exhausted, so I'm going to get ready to snuggle up in bed and catch up on some Elle! Au revoir, loves!

"Start takin' the subway!"

So, how much fun was today? Tons! Once my meetings in the morning were done, I decided to do a little exploring of my own! So, I journeyed over to Macy's (in four-inch wedges, I might add) and did a little browsing. I didn't want to go too far because I had two other meetings to go to! So, after they were FINALLY finished, I went with my friends to the Brooklyn Bridge. I've never been there before, and I figured it would be fun! Thank God one of my friends knows the subway system in and out! I think I would die here without her! LOL! The bridge was A-MAZING! It is now one of my fave spots to go to because you can just stand in the middle of it and just breathe. It's a great place to just meditate and let go. Well, that was my exciting day! I hope yours were just as great! Au revoir, loves!

P.S.~ Got my first NYC catcall. Not very flattering.

Quick breakfast.

So, I just got up an hour or so ago, and I really didn't sleep that well. I guess it'll take me a while to get used to all the new sounds of my new city! Right now, I am grabbing a quick breakfast and then I have three meetings to go to! I really hope I don't doze off! Tonight, I made plans with my bff and I can't wait to explore! Au revoir, loves!

"Sometimes 'goodbye' is a second chance."

So, today, I had to do probably one of the hardest things in my life. I had to say goodbye to my family because I am now living on my own. I know they are only a short train ride away, but I feel like there are WORLDS between us. I just told them that I love them and miss them, and I cried my eyes out for a while. But, now, I feel okay. I feel like I can do this. I feel like I am capable of standing on my own two feet and living my life to the fullest. I am in one of the most exciting cities in the world, and I love having my windows open and listening to the blaring horns, the sounds of traffic, and people chit-chatting! I cannot wait to further explore my new backyard! Anyways, my new school is great as well! They have tons of stuff to offer, and I'm actually excited for the semester to start in a few days! My roommate is really nice! She's very easy to talk to and I know we are going to become great friends! On the plus side, I already have a few great friends from my old school so I don't feel so alone. So, I will keep you updated on how my new life is, and, until later, au revoir, loves!

Last day in Dirty Jersey!

I may be exaggerrating that a bit, but that's definitely what it feels like! Tomorrow morning, I will officially be a Manhattenite! I can't wait to move into my dorm, meet my roommate, make new friends, and just enjoy the hustle and bustle of NYC! I know I will only be a short train ride away from everyone and everything that I love, but I can already feel the waterworks that are going to start bursting out tomorrow! I can't believe that I'm going to be separated from so many things that I've grown to know and love:

-my mom's unconditional love, constantly open arms, and delish chicken parm!
-my daddy's bear hugs, his hilarious jokes and stories, and his out-of-this-world pancakes!
-Meesh's silly car dances, loving and caring nature, and unstoppable energy!
-Ginger's incredible talent to listen to my problems and not judge me, warm and cuddly fur, and heart-melting meows!
-Mommom's loud and fun-loving nature, her ability to make anyone feel instantly better with food, and heart-warming laughter!
-my welcoming home
-the best diner that thankfully doesn't taste like a diner
-the chicest and coziest little orange and black town
-the mall that desperately needs a face lift but is far too familiar to stop going there

These are only a handful of the things that I will feel lost without. Wish me luck changing my life around this weekend. Hopefully, the best is yet to come! Au revoir, loves!

Just a little too late.

Wow. What a day this has been. Let's start from the beginning, shall we? Okay, so today was the first day to register for classes. And I thought it would be no biggie. Well, it turned out to be a HUGE biggie! First of all, my computer is soooo slow that it took me from 9:30 to 1:00 to finish everything! It was not the easiest thing to figure out either. So, at least that fiasco is done and over with for at least the first semester! Ugh! So, next, a nurse came over to teach me how to mix my meds which have come mixed for me ever since I can remember! At least it's not that hard to do. The only high point of my day was when I went over to dogsit for my uncle! She was so cute and a lot of fun! Okay, that was my very hectic day! Hopefully tomorrow will be better in the form of me singing along with my boys at Hershey Park! I'm keeping my fingers crossed! Au revoir, loves!

P.S.- I saw a picture of Brenny today that made me both sad and happy. He was in my fave city standing in front of the Apple store that looks like a fishtank! I was so disappointed because I was at that very spot just a few months ago! Grr!

"I've been in love with you all my life."

So I just started reading "The Time Traveller's Wife" last night and I was instantly hooked! I cannot wait to see the movie! Anyways, I'm sorry I haven't blogged in a while! I've been so busy getting stuff ready for college life. I still cannot believe that I move to NYC in a few short weeks! This summer has gone by so fast! It feels like I just graduated high school yesterday! I'm getting both excited and nervous more and more each day! Okay, that's all for now, loves! I'll try not to miss so many days! Au revoir!

"Hello, I'm a Mac and no longer a PC."

OMJ! (That's right! Even though they have split up, I'm still going to use it!) I feel like I haven't been on here in years! Anyway, the reason I haven't been updating is that my home computer is currently in an Apple store because all my iTunes are being transferred to my NEW MACBOOK! Yay! I am so excited! I can't wait to turn it on and hit that first key! Anyway, that's the biggest news that I can think of for right now. Also, I really need to finish dorm shopping! I'm such a procrastinator! Au revoir, loves!

P.S.~ Good luck on your tour, loves! Have fun and be safe! I love you!

"Some people never change."

She was actin' pretty
Thought she owned the city
But, someone should of told her that pretty ain't a job.

Now she begs for money
No one calls her honey
As she bothers shoppers in the parkin' lot.

Gets her karma with a catch
Forget superstition by wearin' it backwards
Lives under ladders and sleeps with black cats.
Some people never change,
They just stay the same way.

I swear this like a sailor,
Love is not a favor
I find its just a concept that we live inside
If you agree with me and Mr. Twain
In matters of opinion
Our rivals are insane.

Forget superstition by wearin' it backwards
Lives under ladders and sleeps with black cats.
Some people never change,
They just stay the same way.

Some people never change,
They just stay the same way.
Some people never change,
They just stay the same way.

Change, change, change
Change, change, change
Change, change, change.

"Don't wanna live a life that is comprehensive!"

I feel the salty waves come in
I feel them crash against my skin
And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win
There's a haze above my TV
That changes everything I see
And maybe if I continue watching
I'll lose the traits that worry me.

Can we fast-forward to go down on me? (he-he!)
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time
We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine
And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines
But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside

Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

More to the point, I need to show
How much I can come and go
Other plans fell through
And put a heavy load on you
I know there's no more that need be said
When I'm inching through your bed
Take a look around instead and watch me go

Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

It's not fair just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that is comprehensive
Cause seeing clear would be a bad idea
Now catch me up on getting out of here
So catch me up on getting out of here

Unconditional love.

Once again, Kelt's blog had me on the verge of tears. It's about her beloved and really cute doggie, Hobo! I know exactly how she feels. I'm leaving for college in a few short weeks, and I can't imagine what my life will be like without seeing my lovable bundle of orange fur every day. I got Ginger nine years ago, and he's been one of my best friends ever since. I can remember the day we picked him up from PetSmart. He was in a cage with his brother and sister and I couldn't decide which one I wanted. I held each one, and Ginger told me that he was the one I should choose by licking my face. I can't believe that it was so long ago. We have made many memories together. The first day in our house, I couldn't let him go. We have shared many birthdays and many of my special kitty cupcakes. I love when he snuggles up to me when I'm sick, and I love having someone to talk to, knowing that he will never judge me. I will miss him so much when I go away. I know it will be hard at first. What will hurt the most is I won't be there to make his special cupcake on March 28th. But, when I come home on some weekends and holidays, I know he will still love me. That kind of unconditional love is the kind that only a kitty or a doggy can give.

"Things have changed for me, and that's okay!"

I have a new band to follow along with Panic! at the Disco. Two of my boys have finally named their band, and they are the Young Veins. Everyone should listen and download their first single called "Change" at www.myspace.com/theyoungveins. You will love the song. I know I do!

"I wanna live a life from a new perspective!"

Yay! Today's the day! 'New Perspective' is finally available on iTunes and I cannot wait to download it! I listened to Brendon perform it on YouTube while he was at Comic-Con, and it has become my new fave song! Okay, I'm gonna go get my iPod right now because I cannot wait any longer! Au revoir, loves.

Everything was so pink and girly!

So, the bridal shower I went to on Saturday was so much fun. First of all, the country club where it was held was absolutely beautiful. The room we were in had a fantastic view of the golf course, the swimming pool, and so many gorgeous trees. The room was decorated with everything pink and girly and bridal-like! The food was fantastic and don't even get me started on the games! I had such a blast! I cannot wait to see what the wedding will be like. Anyways, yesterday I was going to go to the beach with Meesh and her friends but I was just so exhausted. I couldn't even get up Sunday morning until really late. Sorry, Meesh! I'll make it up to you! Ta-ta for now, loves.

All dressed up with somewhere to go...

I'm up early this morning because I have a bridal shower to go to at 11:30. I'm kind of excited because this gives me a chance to wear my awesome maxidress that I've been dying to wear! LOL! I stayed up late last night reading 'New Moon' again and I'm still not finished! I should be done by tonight, though. Okay, I have to be on my way now. Au revoir, loves!

A quick pick-me-up!

I love mani-pedis! It's just a great way to relax and unwind. I felt like I was a celebrity today, though. While one girl was doing my toes, another girl came over to do my nails while I was in a pedicure chair. I've never gotten that done before! Anyways, I love my cherry red toes and my neon yellow nails! Oh, I forgot to mention: I HATE getting the same color on my nails and toes. I just think it's so boring! LOL! So, I should get to bed now because I have a bridal shower early tomorrow! Au revoir, loves!

The suspense is killing me!

So, I'm almost done with 'New Moon' and it is so hard to put it down! Seriously, I find myself going to bed at, like, 2 or 3 in the morning because of this book! I absolutely adore the Twilight saga and I cannot wait for the movie to come out! Au revoir for now, loves!

"It's the only way I see clear."

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly I fall
Without my wings
I feel so small
And everytime I see
You in my dreams
I see your face
It's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done?
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly I fall
Without my wings
I feel so small
And everytime I see
You in my dreams
I see your face
You're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And, everytime I try to fly I fall
Without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And, everytime I see
You in my dreams
I see your face
You're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby.

I'm bored.

So, since I was bored all day today, I am going to do something fun. I am going to make a list of all the quirks that I love about myself. I think that everyone should do this because it gives you so much self-confidence and it just makes you feel good about yourself! Okay, here we go!

*I love how I start reading a magazine from the back.
*I love how I scrape all the vanilla frosting off of Oreos and just eat the cookies.
*I love how I don't rinse and repeat.
*I love how I can just let loose and be a kid when I'm with my little cousins.
*I love how I laugh during horror movies.
*I love how I blast music really loud when no one's home and start singing at the top of my lungs.
*I love how I make people smile even when I don't mean to.
*I love how I let my anger out by drawing on a piece of paper with a red crayon.
*I love how I put fortunes from fortune cookies in my wallet.
*I love how I start dancing at the most random times.

See? It's so much fun! Of course, this exercise was learned from Kairos and it has stuck with me ever since. Au revoir, loves!

"When I saw her standing there."

So, I have finally spoken to my soon-to-be-NYC roomie after so long, and she gave me some very exciting news! She is thinking of bringing her record player so we can blast vinyls and be the coolest chicks in our building! I cannot wait to scour the racks for awesome vintage Beatles, the Rolling Stones, the Kinks...ah! Okay, that was the highlight of my otherwise boring day. Au revoir, loves!

I am not a munchkin!

So, girls night out last night was pure awesomeness! Although, Meesh kept knocking my romper! Also, I apparently flirt with waiters unintentionally when I order. Last night was the first time that anyone's ever pointed that out to me. So, before we went out, I played hairdresser, and I loved it! I gave Meesh some totally kick-butt beach waves and she looked absolutely gorgeous. While driving, the people in the cars next to us probably thought we were all nuts when we were singing "Don't Stop Believin'" at the tops of our lungs with the windows rolled down! Oh, my gosh! So much fun! Anyway, back to work today. I have to finish an online alcohol course in order to live on-campus at FIT. Wish me luck. Au revoir, loves!

Vampires.

So, I have finally been bitten by "Twilight!" I finished the book last night, and it was amazing! I also watched the movie, and it was good, but nowhere near as good as the book is! However, I haven't turned into an Edward Cullen fanatic, thankfully! Anyways, I'm waiting for Meesh to pick me up so we can get our nails done. I have my very comfy romper on from American Apparel and I feel so awesome in it! Okay, talk to you later, loves!

A pinch of disappointment.

So, the NYC trip? It never happened. I woke up today at around 6:45 and I decided that I could sleep for another fifteen minutes. So, I closed my eyes...and when I woke up again it was 8:30! I knew we weren't going because my mom never woke me up. So, I come to find that the person that planned the whole trip had to go to the doctor because her poison ivy has gotten worse. I'm not super mad at her, but I'm just really disappointed about missing the sample sale. Okay, that's all that's going on in my life right now. I'm gonna go finish "Twilight" because I'm almost finished! Au revoir loves.

Courage. Passion. Hard work.

So, I am about to order my mantra cuff that Ms. Keltie designed herself! They are so cool. I wanna get it now because she twittered yesterday that there was only about a handfull left. So, yeah, today is gonna be pretty uneventful for me. I have to save up all my energy for NYC tomorrow! I totally can't wait to go to the Betsey Johnson sample sale! I've never been to one! I'll keep you posted on all my great finds! Au revoir, loves!

"Don't you know that those watermelon smiles just can't ripen underwater."

I love Hurricane Harbor! It is my all-time fave thing to do in the summer! I had such a blast today. There are so many slides, and pools, and lazy rivers, and...more slides! I wanna go back already! I still couldn't brace myself enough to tackle the super-tall and super-fast green body slide though. Oh, well. Maybe next year. I did do the two closed ones next to it though! They are so much fun! Okay, I'm gonna get out of this damp bathing suit and into the shower. I'm meeting Meesh for lunch tomorrow so she can tell me all about the sweet little dumplings that she has to watch every day! Love you, Meesh! Au revoir, loves!

Cravings.

So, I just woke up an hour ago, and I instantly started craving a McDonald's cheeseburger! So weird! Anyway, my parents should be back soon with one. Anyways, last night was really fun! However, it did make me sad to see the "In the Days" documentary on the Live in Chicago DVD. I still can't believe it actually happened. Okay, I'm gonna go finish my hair because I just got out of the shower. Au revoir, loves!

Pizza, Panic! DVDs, Elle magazine, and Twitter...all the basic essentials for a Saturday night.

So, I have a whole night to myself tonight. My parents are at a Phillies game and I am just sitting on my big, comfy couch watching TV. I ordered pizza for myself, sang along to the entire AFYCSO album, and am going to watch the "Nothing Rhymes with Circus" tour DVD next. Big Daddy was on earlier and I was so excited! That is one of my fave movies! Okay, I'm gonna get back to my couch now and catch up on Elle. Au revoir loves!

Exhausted.

Wow. Today took a lot out of me. It was a hospital visit day and they usually make me very tired, but today was just awful! I've never been so tired in my life. I was so happy when Daddy went to get me my Starbucks on his walk. It perked me up a bit. I then went out to dinner with my mom and her friends which was fun because they brought their daughters as well. But, now, I just feel like I could just put my head on my pillow and fall right asleep. Which is exactly what I'm going to do. I'll probably stay home all day tomorrow to so I can rest. My parents are going to a ball game and I certainly do not want to go to that! So, yeah, today was pretty much uneventful. Hope all of your days went a lot better! Au revoir, loves!

I hope you dance.

I just read Kelts' blog, and it brought tears to my eyes. I still can't believe what he has become either. He has left his band, which were his REAL friends, behind for people who are ruining his life. They are not his true "friends" if they treat him like that. The guy that I met and want to remember is the one who loves Wall-E stickers and Olive Garden. I loved the guy that didn't believe that drugs were needed, who loved seeing peace signs and hugs in a huge crowd, and who had a smile that was so darn cute and contagious. I hope that he finds a way out of this horrible rut that he's in and realizes who his true friends are. My prayers are with you, darling. I love you.


I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give fate a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their years and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their years and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their years and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

"Where everyday is a Great Adventure."

Wow. What a hectic and fun-filled day today was! My ankles are killing me from walking so much. Me, my momma, my aunt, and my cousin went to Six Flags today and it was beyond awesome. I braved the Batman roller coaster, and I am so proud of myself. It was so much fun! Still, my fave parts of the day have to be the dolphin show and the roaring rapids ride. I got drenched! I love our annual trip to Six Flags. Especially this year. It took my mind off of my boys breaking up for a whole day. I even wore my "Reinvent Love" shirt to show that I am still a die-hard Panic fan, even though now I have two bands to support. Well, I feel like a total scuzball right now, so I guess I'll hop in the shower and head off to bed. Au revoir, loves!

"Life is a highway, I wanna ride it all night long"

After a very good sleep last night, I've finally come to a decision. Maybe this is for the best. Maybe being apart will make their music even more amazing than it already is. The only thing that I'm certain of is that I will love each of them forever.

Brendon- the life of the band. I love your never-ending energy and your gorgeous voice. No matter how down I feel or what kind of situation I'm in, you never fail to make me smile. Your love for animals, your loud and obnoxious (in a good way!) nature, and your love of Olive Garden's breadsticks are just a few of the things I love about you. You'll be fine. And remember, don't let anyone steal your animal crackers!

Jon- the eclectic sweetheart. Mr. Walker, let me use one word to describe you: AMAZING. Your loving and caring nature never ceases to amaze me. I love all your random tweets and how your home is crawling with three little creatures that I've grown to love. I'll never forget our love for the salad at Olive Garden and how we both live in states that hit below zero during the winter. I love you and always will. I'm sure you will accomplish great things. Tell Dylan, Clover, and Marley that they are always loved and that they have a great Daddy.

Spencer- the silent troublemaker. What can I say about Spencer? You are sweet, funny, loving, and a warrior on the drums! Although you didn't say much when we met, I could tell that you were the troublemaker in the band. And that's a good thing! I loved how you laughed at Jon for holding a conversation with my momma. That def made me laugh. I'm excited to see the amazing things that you and Brenny have in store for us. I'm sure you two will do great things together. And remember, keep Brendon in his place!

Ryan- the shy genius. Ryan, Ryan, Ryan. Although you've had a very rocky year, remember that I still love you. I know that you are not to blame for this separation, so don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. You write the most beautiful lyrics that I've ever heard, and I'm sure that you and Jon will make amazing music together. I still remember how your eyes lit up when my momma told you that you look like a young Paul McCartney. You really do. And I know that you will accomplish great things just like he has. I love you so much. And, just think! Now Brenny won't be able to hog the microphone like he usually does! Sorry Brenny! Now everyone will be able to hear your beautiful voice.

It's been an amazing four and a half years. Throughout those years, I've collected many beautiful memories of those four amazing boys. A fever that no one could sweat out, a psychedelic Beatles-esque album, an amazing live CD from JWalk's hometown, a gorgeous bag signed by your talented little hands, a pair of sunglasses with tiny mementos on them, three amazing concerts that I am proud to say that I went to, a meet-and-greet that seemed to last only minutes but gave me a lifetime of memories, and a statement that says it all. I love you guys. Although you will be separated, I cannot wait to hear all the amazing music that will come out of it. Panic at the Disco will live on in my heart forever. And, I can't say this enough, I love you guys.

"WE MUST REINVENT LOVE!"

I died on Monday, July 6th, 2009 at 12:54 pm.

This just HAS to be a joke. My boys just CANNOT break up. Their third album is almost finished and they are on tour this summer. I thought something funky was going on when I saw only pictures of either Brendon and Spencer together or Jon and Ryan together. But, still, I may hopefully be wrong. It is impossible for Brendon and Spencer to be PATD without Jon and Ryan. And it is impossible for Jon and Ryan to go on without Brendon and Spencer. Zack, you're supposed to protect them! Help them figure out that what they're doing is a huge mistake! I'm just gonna pray that this is a cruel, sick joke. If it is, I'll forgive them but I will be a bit ticked off.

I'm overwhelmed!

Okay, so I'm home by myself today because I still don't feel all that great. So, instead of just sitting on the couch all day reading magazines, I decided to do a little research on what I need to bring to college. You should see the list I made! I really have to get to a Container Store one of these days to get all this junk because August 23rd will be here before I know it! I'm watching Full House right now so I guess that's all I have to say. Au revoir loves!

Sometimes I hate being a girl.

Today I was visited by someone very late. And, for me, when that happens, it's usually hell. That is exactly what today was. Ugh. I have never felt this bad in a long time. Hopefully I'll be much better tomorrow. Anyway, aside from that, today was okay. Me and Meesh got our nails done, which kind of relaxed me a bit. But then, we were supposed to meet her so called "best friend" for dinner. So, we waited and waited, but he never called. I wasn't surprised, but I kinda thought that he would be different this time. Boy, was I wrong! I think she should just give up on him for good, but I know that that's very hard for her because they've known each other for so long and she doesn't just want to throw all that away. I just wish that he was nicer to her because she is truly the only friend that he has. I just hate seeing her so hurt and upset every time he promises to do something with her but never does. Hopefully one day, he'll realize who his real best friend is. Okay, that was my little speech for the night. I'm about to crash and end this day. Au revoir loves.

I think I was supposed to be born a fish.

I love the fourth of July. Why? One word: swimming. I love to swim. As soon as I get in the water, I never want to get out! I mean sure it's annoying to get wrinkly fingertips and kinky looking hair, but it is totally worth it! Swimming, much like dancing, is just something that has always come very naturally to me. I think one of the reasons that I love it so much is that my grandpa taught me how. Every time I jump into a pool or the ocean, all I can remember is how he used to hold me because I was too scared to paddle on my own. It just brings back so many beautiful memories of us together. I miss him so much and not a day goes by that I don't think of him. Okay, I'm gonna make myself cry! Anyway, today was fun. I hope all of your picnics and fireworks were great as well. Au revoir, loves!

Pizza to go!

Today is finally Sukie's grad party! I can't wait to see her again! However, no matter how much fun we have tonight, it will only remind me how far apart we'll be in a matter of weeks. These past few years have gone by in a flash. I still can't believe it's been five years since we were sitting in advanced algebra (us nerds!) giggling and having so much fun. Those precious memories will live in my heart forever. Sukie is the best friend that anyone could ever hope to have. I even remember doing a best friends project in 8th grade English. I remember it well. Trucker hats, Lizzie McGuire, and lip gloss. Things that may seem random to others but are special to us. I love you, girl. And, no matter how far away we may be, our bond will stay strong. Remember, "supercalifragilisticexpealidocious is the only way to describe it."

You don't have to let go.

I feel like such a rat. One of my best friends who was also my Kairos leader has left for the Navel Academy. And I didn't even say goodbye. I just looked in my phone and saw that he left me a text message that brought me to tears. Those Kairos moments will be kept in my heart forever as well. I promise I will write to you, love. All my love goes out to you. Good luck with all that you do and I hope to see you again in the future. I love you. Never forget that.

New Perspective.

Finally! Some proof that my boys are actually doing something about the new album! Their newest single, "New Perspective," is slated to come out toward the middle of August. I cannot wait. Peety posted a lyric on his twitter, and I can already tell that it's going to be very catchy! Anyway, I've been very bored these past few days. I've been watching my fave childhood movie, "That Darn Cat" over and over and it is amazing that I still find the nosy next door neighbor so funny! Anyway, I'm going to go clean out all my old school books to get ma mere off my back! Love you! Au revoir, loves.

"I'll buy these and these alone!"

Yeah, right. Although, I did have a lot of fun shopping today! Forever 21 has THE cutest summer clothes! I got tons of stuff for a very little amount! I also got to see my laptop today up close and it is just so adorable! And, bonus! Any student buying a laptop for college gets a free iPod Touch! Yay! Anyways, me and Meesh went to the beach yesterday and didn't get a single burn! It was a gorgeous day and the water was so nice and warm. The only downside was that it was filled to the brim with people and these kids behind us were playing baseball over us! LOL! Okay, I'm gonna go hang up new additions to my closet and I will post more later! A bientot, loves!

"It would make my haircut look more expensive..."

I feel like a totally different woman! I went to the amazing genius, Mrs. C, yesterday afternoon, and she did a bang-up job on my hair! It looks absolutely stunning. I didn't cut it at all because I've made that mistake before, and I do not intend to do it again. But, I decided to go darker with my hair color. Much, much darker! I love it! I don't know why I never thought of this sooner. Anyway, aside from a great hair day, yesterday was one of the saddest days in history because the world lost two amazing people: Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson. Horrible. I watched both TV specials last night, and they were very emotional and very moving. Rest in peace. Tomorrow, I am going to be busy, busy, busy! And, I cannot wait to go to the carnival tomorrow night! I've never missed one yet! Au revoir for now, loves!

~"I think I just sent the editor of Allete Magazine 20 dollars to buy herself some decent clothes and stick her job up her ass!"~ Rebecca Bloomwood

P.S.

In my state of panic, I forgot some important news! Confessions of a Shopaholic came out on DVD today! Yay! Of course, I rushed out to get it! LOL! I cannot wait to watch it! Au revoir, loves!



~"But, that means that you just spent twenty-three dollars on a hot dog!"- Rebecca Bloomwood

I may very well be living across the street from the next Columbine kid.

Okay, I was asked on a date tonight by this kid who lives across the street from me. And, you know, I naturally said no because one: I hardly know him and two: he's a lot younger than me. So, I tell him no in a nice way and then he goes on this long shpeel about how he wishes he could leave this world for a better place (please don't kill yourself!), how he wanted to blow up his old school because the kids were mean to him, and how he wants to kill me because I'm beautiful on this outside but ugly on the inside. Um, that is far from the truth. I don't have to go out with you if I don't want to. And, no wonder you've never had a girlfriend if you go around talking like that! You probably freak people out! You certainly freaked me out! Anyway, I'm gonna double bolt my door and windows tonight because now he's got me totally freaked out! At least someone was nice enough to come over and comfort me when I was literally shaking. Thanks, love!

Anyway, on a happier note! The sleepover with Mear-Bear on Sunday was sooooooo much fun! I got yet another person addicted to Legally Blonde! LOL! OMJ, we stayed up till four in the morning just catching up and having a blast! I heart her! Okay, more later, loves. If I'm still alive. I'm not even joking.

"Talk to me, dance with me. You're the spotlight, girl!"

Just got back from a very full schedule today. I am totally exhausted. Those little pink Benadryl pills are stronger than they look! I was bombarded with college plan questions today, which made me feel a bit overwhelmed, but I guess that it's good that I have people who know what they're doing helping me figure out important stuff like that. Anyhoo, I was told that I need to find ways to stay active now that dance is over. So, I was thinking that I could take my uncle's adorable puppy for jogs around my development. I think that it would be sooooo much fun! As for college, all activities are free for the students, so I will probably join the dance team and take a weekly yoga class. Should be fun! Ta-ta for now, loves!

Shake the glitter.

On the way home from Philly yesterday, I figured something out. I am terrified about what this year will bring me. Aside from having to attend a brand new school in a brand new city with brand new people, I will have to totally change my life in more ways I thought possible. The scariest change, I think, is having to go to a totally different hospital with doctors and nurses that I've never met before. I will have to leave behind the smiling faces and caring nurses that I've grown to love. Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for this opportunity, but there is always that little nagging voice in the back of my head that keeps telling me that I can't do it. And that scares me.

Almost died of boredom today!

It's amazing how fast you can become bored when you have nowhere to go and nothing to do! It was way to cold to go swimming today, and I was a bit bummed out! Oh well, maybe tomorrow will be nicer. Nothing really happened today. I woke up at 2:00 and my whole day was practically ruined! I hate sleeping through half the day. It just makes you more tired. Okay, well, I'm gonna go watch Family Guy and hopefully catch up on my Elle magazines that have been neglected! Au revoir, loves!

Don't want to say goodbye.

Something just hit me today. It's a strange little thought, but it's devastating to me personally. I will never be able to open my locker anymore. D-1509. Those would just look like a jumble of numbers to someone else, but to me, it was practically my home for the past four years. Now, some little freshman is going to be lucky enough to get that locker and call it home (hopefully it's a girl because she will find plenty of pink rhinestones and glitter on the bottom of it!) Sunday had to be one of the hardest days of my life. I said goodbye to the people I've gotten to know and love over the course of four years. The hardest people to say goodbye to would be my Kairos family. We were practically in tears. I know that this year will bring all new experiences to me along with new friends, new subjects, and a new place to call "home." My high school experience has given me many wonderful memories. But, that's all they are now. Distant memories. And they will live in my heart forever, along with the people that I have grown to love.

A fever you can't sweat out.

So, how about I haven't written in like a week? Yeah, sorry about that! I was feeling great on Sunday night when I got back from the beach, but then all of a sudden a flu snuck up on me Monday morning! I caught it from school and I thought I had dodged a bullet when I left, but I guess not! I was in the hospital from Monday to Tuesday, but they put me on these pills to stifle the symptoms, and I am feeling tons better! This was a really sucky week to get sick though because it's my graduation weekend! Okay, we had practice on Thursday morning, and that went by quickly and painlessly. Then that night we had Senior Awards Night. I got to wear my really cute Tracy Feith dress from Target and I got the English and pre-calc awards. I know, I was shocked about the math one too! Anyway, yesterday we had our alumni breakfast and a second practice which also went by quickly. The only thing that sucks was that I missed Project Graduation last night because I felt that I would get worse by staying up all night. I'm upset that I missed it, but I think it was the right thing to do. Okay, I have to go get ready for the Baccalaureate mass tongight, and then tomorrow is finally graduation! Au revoir loves!

Sand, sun, surf...and sunburn!

So, me and my fave cousin, Meesh, went to the beach for the first time this summer and it was so much fun! Except for the fact that we are both lying on her bed in sheer pain right now from a really bad sunburn! Oh, well! It was well worth it! Ugh, it feels sooooooo nice knowing that I don't have to get up tomorrow at six in the morning to go to school! This is why I love summer! Okay, that's pretty much all that went down today. Au revoir my lovelies!

P.S.~ To the lady screaming at the girl across the beach that accidentally showed her boobs today, I don't think it's helping if your kids develop a mouth like yours! Just sayin'!

My first real weekend.

It feels so good to actually relax on a Saturday and not have to worry about homework or tests or projects. This is why I love the summer. Anyway, I'm still pretty bummed out over my concert being cancelled, but I'm just hoping now that it will make them FINISH THEIR RECORD FASTER!!!! Well, that's pretty much all I have to say tonight. I should go get ready because my cousin is watching me type this over my shoulder and needs her fix of the computer because she hasn't been on all day! Au revoir loves!

P.S.~ Who knew that you could find such a cute sundress in Target! Everyone should check out their Tracy line! He has some very cute things!

I hate my life right now.

The concert that I bought tickets for to see my boys in July has been unexpectedly CANCELLED!!!!!!!!!! I am so pissed off right now! (Not at the guys. I could never be mad at them.) But I am sooooooooooooooooooooooo mad! I'm buying myself my Louboutin shoes as my source of comfort after I graduate! Grrrrrrrr!

"As we go on, we remember all the times we've had together. And as our lives change from whatever, we will still be friends forever."

These are some of the most powerful and soul-shattering words that I've heard. Today was perhaps the saddest day of my life. It was my last day of high school. I mean, seriously, I even teared up cleaning out my locker and looking at '1509' for the last time! It is so sad! If I was this much of a wreck today, I can only imagine how bad I'll be at the actual graduation! On the bright side, I can have a nice long uninterrupted sleep tonight! And, my weekend is looking pretty fun! More later, loves!

One more day.

Tomorrow, it will be official. My high school career will be over. Forever. I know that I've been rushing this week along, but now that I think about it, I can't believe that I will soon be leaving all of the things that I have grown to love.

- Activity periods spent in the art room with one of my most influential art teachers and my best friends
- My entire Kairos family that always comes to me with open arms to let me know that I am loved
- Cafeteria runs with my Tay-Tay, avoiding the hall Nazis because we may have been wearing "illegal shoes"
- Mr. L's constant loving insults and hilarious jokes
- The funniest "ginger" I have ever met
- JQ's amazing card tricks that continue to stump me
- Acting like a goof with my BFF in art class instead of focusing on our work

While I am writing this, my eyes are beginning to well up. These past four years have been the best of my life. I don't want to say goodbye. I will miss these, and many, many other aspects of my time in high school. I love you class of 2009. Remember: Doubt the first. Cry the second. Love the third. Live the fourth.

Ticket to Ride.

Yay, yay, yay, yay, yay, yay! My PATD tickets came in the mail today! Yay! I can't wait till the concert! My boys! I also talked to my roomie at FIT for the first time today. She seems super nice, and I can't wait to meet her! I have a feeling that this year is gonna be so much fun! Okay, I must go get in the shower now because I went to bed way to late last night and I was exhausted this morning! Au revoir, darlings!

California dreamin'...

This week is going by soooooo slow! I cannot believe that it's only Tuesday! This is my last week as a high school senior. I know, I know, I should be living it up. But, it's kinda hard to do that with all this last minute work! It's getting a little better though. I'm done with English and art, and I'm almost done with religion. However, that trig test was perhaps the hardest math test I ever had to take. I really hope I did well on it, but I asked my teacher and she said it shouldn't affect my grade that much. Fingers crossed because I really don't want to take that final. Three more days of high school left! I'm really excited!

"It's just another manic Monday"

From the minute I stepped onto the front steps of my school this morning, I could just tell what kind of day I was going to have. And, boy, was I right. Some lady came bolting out of the door that I was standing in front of and almost knocked me out, and she barely apologized! Ugh! Next was math class. My quiz that I had to make up was good, but then I had to do 13 IMPOSSIBLE problems to study for the test tomorrow. I hate trig! Religion was fine, activity was fine, and art was fine. But, then we get to English class. I was out on Friday, which means that I missed a huge chunk of the movie that we're watching, so I hope to God that it's on youtube. I need to know that along with everything else on the Victorian Age for my test tomorrow. And, I cannot blow either of these tests because I DO NOT WANT TO TAKE ANY FINALS! God! It's my last week of my senior year. My uncle's right. I should feel like I'm floating down the Lazy River at Hurricane Harbor right now!

"Talk to me, dance with me! You're the spotlight girl!"

So, today is my last dance recital ever! I am so sad! I can't believe how fast those three years have gone by. Yesterday was dress rehearsal, and it went great. I love all of the dances because "Dancing Through the Decades" is probably my most fave theme. Okay, well I have to go slick my hair back into a bun now which will probably take me forever! Au revoir, loves!

My boys: take 4!

Yay! After waiting for FIVE LONG GRUELING MONTHS without seeing my boys, I am finally going to see them again on July 31st! Yay! I can't wait! And, hopefully I'll have an amazing new album to add to my iPod very very soon! Dress rehearsal tomorrow, and then my last recital ever on Sunday. Boo! I have a feeling that tears are going to shed.

P.S.~ Follow what your gut tells you to do, because, even if it seems like it, your heart is not always thinking clearly.

My hectic schedule always makes me miss something!

So, today was one of my Kairos buddie's senior project on his year spent in Germany. Of course, it was after school and I had to miss it because I had to get blood work done in Philly! I feel so bad! I really wanted to see it! And, on top of that, I'm missing a dress down day tomorrow! It never fails. Anyway, today was otherwise alright. I just found myself nodding off a lot because I have so much sleep to catch up on. Thank God I only have one more week of school left! Au revoir, loves!

La Petit Couturiere

That's my friend, "the little fashion designer", and I really enjoyed her presentation today! Her collection was gorgeous and her prom dress...that she made HERSELF!...is so darling! I loved all her inspirations, from Audrey Hepburn to wood grain print, and I loved her color scheme of natural tones and peaches. She is so Parisian and very talented, and I know that I'll see her clothes on the racks of the most prestigious department stores and boutiques very soon! And, I will be proud to wear them and to tell people that I know her! Anyway, I have to go and finish some math homework, and then I'm going to bed because I'm so exhausted! Au revoir, loves!

An empty feeling.

So, just as I suspected, all of my classes today were totally empty! There were exactly 137 seniors absent today after our big prom weekend! It felt so weird being there, and I knew I should have taken off. Although, I did not fall behind in math which is a good thing because we learned something totally new. Also, all my English work is done because I was in today. So, I guess those two things are my silver lining. However, I was EXHAUSTED today, and I found it really hard to stay awake. Oh well, tomorrow should be better because another one of my friends is having a fashion show for her senior project! And, I have Friday off! Yay! Well, I'm about to leave for my LAST NIGHT OF DANCE CLASS EVER! I know, it's so sad! Au revoir, loves!

"I want somethin' else, not listening when you say...goodbye!"

Ladies and gentlemen, our Prom '09 song! I had the most amazing time last night! Everything from getting all dolled up, to the ride to the aquarium, to prom itself, to post prom was unbelieveable! I got a lot of gorgeous pics, and everyone looked great! I got to dance with one of my very funny and crazy Kairos buddies (sorry Meesh, no picture!) and I got a comment from another very sweet Kairos buddy that instantly made me feel fabulous! So, after prom was over, it was back to school for a fun-packed night! Omigod, there was everything there! I got tattoos, I kicked my best friend's butt in moonbounce boxing, I won tons of stuff, and I proved to myself that it was soooo much more fun without being tied down to a date (Told you, Ant!) Anyway, I'm exhausted right now, and I think I'm gonna take a little nap. Au revoir, loves!

The royal treatment.

So, tonight is the big night! Yes, that's right, it's my senior prom! I can't wait! I'm going to leave in a little bit to get my hair and makeup done, and then it's off to a night "Under the Sea!" And, I am actually really glad not to have a date. That way, I can just focus on having an awesome time with my friends rather than having an awkward time with someone I barely know...or towers over me! LOL! Okay, I have to go make sure I have everything, and I will update everyone later! Au revoir, loves!

Short, TAN!!!, and gorgeous!

I'M FINALLY TAN FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!!!!! I absolutely love it! I had a spray tan done yesterday, and it looks amazing! I feel so great! I am actually comfortable to walk out of the house with no makeup on at all because my face is no longer as white as my walls! So, nails and toes done today for prom tomorrow! Yay, yay, yay! I cannot wait! Au revoir, loves!

There's no place like home!

So, I FINALLY got my FIT housing and roommate information today! I'm so excited! I hope my roommate is as nice as her last name suggests! LOL! I cannot wait to live in NYC. Do you want to know my most fave part? It's not the great school, it's not the amazing restaurants, it's not the great theaters, it's not even all the fab upscale shopping (okay, it's a little bit of that!) My absolute fave part about NYC is hearing the blaring of the horns when you wake up in the morning! I don't know why, but I ADORE that! Okay, I'm gonna see if I can find some info on my roommate, and then it's off to bed! Au revoir, loves!

P.S.~ See you tomorrow, Meesh!