"Some people never change."

She was actin' pretty
Thought she owned the city
But, someone should of told her that pretty ain't a job.

Now she begs for money
No one calls her honey
As she bothers shoppers in the parkin' lot.

Gets her karma with a catch
Forget superstition by wearin' it backwards
Lives under ladders and sleeps with black cats.
Some people never change,
They just stay the same way.

I swear this like a sailor,
Love is not a favor
I find its just a concept that we live inside
If you agree with me and Mr. Twain
In matters of opinion
Our rivals are insane.

Forget superstition by wearin' it backwards
Lives under ladders and sleeps with black cats.
Some people never change,
They just stay the same way.

Some people never change,
They just stay the same way.
Some people never change,
They just stay the same way.

Change, change, change
Change, change, change
Change, change, change.

"Don't wanna live a life that is comprehensive!"

I feel the salty waves come in
I feel them crash against my skin
And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win
There's a haze above my TV
That changes everything I see
And maybe if I continue watching
I'll lose the traits that worry me.

Can we fast-forward to go down on me? (he-he!)
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time
We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine
And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines
But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside

Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

More to the point, I need to show
How much I can come and go
Other plans fell through
And put a heavy load on you
I know there's no more that need be said
When I'm inching through your bed
Take a look around instead and watch me go

Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

It's not fair just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that is comprehensive
Cause seeing clear would be a bad idea
Now catch me up on getting out of here
So catch me up on getting out of here

Unconditional love.

Once again, Kelt's blog had me on the verge of tears. It's about her beloved and really cute doggie, Hobo! I know exactly how she feels. I'm leaving for college in a few short weeks, and I can't imagine what my life will be like without seeing my lovable bundle of orange fur every day. I got Ginger nine years ago, and he's been one of my best friends ever since. I can remember the day we picked him up from PetSmart. He was in a cage with his brother and sister and I couldn't decide which one I wanted. I held each one, and Ginger told me that he was the one I should choose by licking my face. I can't believe that it was so long ago. We have made many memories together. The first day in our house, I couldn't let him go. We have shared many birthdays and many of my special kitty cupcakes. I love when he snuggles up to me when I'm sick, and I love having someone to talk to, knowing that he will never judge me. I will miss him so much when I go away. I know it will be hard at first. What will hurt the most is I won't be there to make his special cupcake on March 28th. But, when I come home on some weekends and holidays, I know he will still love me. That kind of unconditional love is the kind that only a kitty or a doggy can give.

"Things have changed for me, and that's okay!"

I have a new band to follow along with Panic! at the Disco. Two of my boys have finally named their band, and they are the Young Veins. Everyone should listen and download their first single called "Change" at www.myspace.com/theyoungveins. You will love the song. I know I do!

"I wanna live a life from a new perspective!"

Yay! Today's the day! 'New Perspective' is finally available on iTunes and I cannot wait to download it! I listened to Brendon perform it on YouTube while he was at Comic-Con, and it has become my new fave song! Okay, I'm gonna go get my iPod right now because I cannot wait any longer! Au revoir, loves.

Everything was so pink and girly!

So, the bridal shower I went to on Saturday was so much fun. First of all, the country club where it was held was absolutely beautiful. The room we were in had a fantastic view of the golf course, the swimming pool, and so many gorgeous trees. The room was decorated with everything pink and girly and bridal-like! The food was fantastic and don't even get me started on the games! I had such a blast! I cannot wait to see what the wedding will be like. Anyways, yesterday I was going to go to the beach with Meesh and her friends but I was just so exhausted. I couldn't even get up Sunday morning until really late. Sorry, Meesh! I'll make it up to you! Ta-ta for now, loves.

All dressed up with somewhere to go...

I'm up early this morning because I have a bridal shower to go to at 11:30. I'm kind of excited because this gives me a chance to wear my awesome maxidress that I've been dying to wear! LOL! I stayed up late last night reading 'New Moon' again and I'm still not finished! I should be done by tonight, though. Okay, I have to be on my way now. Au revoir, loves!

A quick pick-me-up!

I love mani-pedis! It's just a great way to relax and unwind. I felt like I was a celebrity today, though. While one girl was doing my toes, another girl came over to do my nails while I was in a pedicure chair. I've never gotten that done before! Anyways, I love my cherry red toes and my neon yellow nails! Oh, I forgot to mention: I HATE getting the same color on my nails and toes. I just think it's so boring! LOL! So, I should get to bed now because I have a bridal shower early tomorrow! Au revoir, loves!

The suspense is killing me!

So, I'm almost done with 'New Moon' and it is so hard to put it down! Seriously, I find myself going to bed at, like, 2 or 3 in the morning because of this book! I absolutely adore the Twilight saga and I cannot wait for the movie to come out! Au revoir for now, loves!

"It's the only way I see clear."

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly I fall
Without my wings
I feel so small
And everytime I see
You in my dreams
I see your face
It's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done?
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly I fall
Without my wings
I feel so small
And everytime I see
You in my dreams
I see your face
You're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And, everytime I try to fly I fall
Without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And, everytime I see
You in my dreams
I see your face
You're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby.

I'm bored.

So, since I was bored all day today, I am going to do something fun. I am going to make a list of all the quirks that I love about myself. I think that everyone should do this because it gives you so much self-confidence and it just makes you feel good about yourself! Okay, here we go!

*I love how I start reading a magazine from the back.
*I love how I scrape all the vanilla frosting off of Oreos and just eat the cookies.
*I love how I don't rinse and repeat.
*I love how I can just let loose and be a kid when I'm with my little cousins.
*I love how I laugh during horror movies.
*I love how I blast music really loud when no one's home and start singing at the top of my lungs.
*I love how I make people smile even when I don't mean to.
*I love how I let my anger out by drawing on a piece of paper with a red crayon.
*I love how I put fortunes from fortune cookies in my wallet.
*I love how I start dancing at the most random times.

See? It's so much fun! Of course, this exercise was learned from Kairos and it has stuck with me ever since. Au revoir, loves!

"When I saw her standing there."

So, I have finally spoken to my soon-to-be-NYC roomie after so long, and she gave me some very exciting news! She is thinking of bringing her record player so we can blast vinyls and be the coolest chicks in our building! I cannot wait to scour the racks for awesome vintage Beatles, the Rolling Stones, the Kinks...ah! Okay, that was the highlight of my otherwise boring day. Au revoir, loves!

I am not a munchkin!

So, girls night out last night was pure awesomeness! Although, Meesh kept knocking my romper! Also, I apparently flirt with waiters unintentionally when I order. Last night was the first time that anyone's ever pointed that out to me. So, before we went out, I played hairdresser, and I loved it! I gave Meesh some totally kick-butt beach waves and she looked absolutely gorgeous. While driving, the people in the cars next to us probably thought we were all nuts when we were singing "Don't Stop Believin'" at the tops of our lungs with the windows rolled down! Oh, my gosh! So much fun! Anyway, back to work today. I have to finish an online alcohol course in order to live on-campus at FIT. Wish me luck. Au revoir, loves!

Vampires.

So, I have finally been bitten by "Twilight!" I finished the book last night, and it was amazing! I also watched the movie, and it was good, but nowhere near as good as the book is! However, I haven't turned into an Edward Cullen fanatic, thankfully! Anyways, I'm waiting for Meesh to pick me up so we can get our nails done. I have my very comfy romper on from American Apparel and I feel so awesome in it! Okay, talk to you later, loves!

A pinch of disappointment.

So, the NYC trip? It never happened. I woke up today at around 6:45 and I decided that I could sleep for another fifteen minutes. So, I closed my eyes...and when I woke up again it was 8:30! I knew we weren't going because my mom never woke me up. So, I come to find that the person that planned the whole trip had to go to the doctor because her poison ivy has gotten worse. I'm not super mad at her, but I'm just really disappointed about missing the sample sale. Okay, that's all that's going on in my life right now. I'm gonna go finish "Twilight" because I'm almost finished! Au revoir loves.

Courage. Passion. Hard work.

So, I am about to order my mantra cuff that Ms. Keltie designed herself! They are so cool. I wanna get it now because she twittered yesterday that there was only about a handfull left. So, yeah, today is gonna be pretty uneventful for me. I have to save up all my energy for NYC tomorrow! I totally can't wait to go to the Betsey Johnson sample sale! I've never been to one! I'll keep you posted on all my great finds! Au revoir, loves!

"Don't you know that those watermelon smiles just can't ripen underwater."

I love Hurricane Harbor! It is my all-time fave thing to do in the summer! I had such a blast today. There are so many slides, and pools, and lazy rivers, and...more slides! I wanna go back already! I still couldn't brace myself enough to tackle the super-tall and super-fast green body slide though. Oh, well. Maybe next year. I did do the two closed ones next to it though! They are so much fun! Okay, I'm gonna get out of this damp bathing suit and into the shower. I'm meeting Meesh for lunch tomorrow so she can tell me all about the sweet little dumplings that she has to watch every day! Love you, Meesh! Au revoir, loves!

Cravings.

So, I just woke up an hour ago, and I instantly started craving a McDonald's cheeseburger! So weird! Anyway, my parents should be back soon with one. Anyways, last night was really fun! However, it did make me sad to see the "In the Days" documentary on the Live in Chicago DVD. I still can't believe it actually happened. Okay, I'm gonna go finish my hair because I just got out of the shower. Au revoir, loves!

Pizza, Panic! DVDs, Elle magazine, and Twitter...all the basic essentials for a Saturday night.

So, I have a whole night to myself tonight. My parents are at a Phillies game and I am just sitting on my big, comfy couch watching TV. I ordered pizza for myself, sang along to the entire AFYCSO album, and am going to watch the "Nothing Rhymes with Circus" tour DVD next. Big Daddy was on earlier and I was so excited! That is one of my fave movies! Okay, I'm gonna get back to my couch now and catch up on Elle. Au revoir loves!

Exhausted.

Wow. Today took a lot out of me. It was a hospital visit day and they usually make me very tired, but today was just awful! I've never been so tired in my life. I was so happy when Daddy went to get me my Starbucks on his walk. It perked me up a bit. I then went out to dinner with my mom and her friends which was fun because they brought their daughters as well. But, now, I just feel like I could just put my head on my pillow and fall right asleep. Which is exactly what I'm going to do. I'll probably stay home all day tomorrow to so I can rest. My parents are going to a ball game and I certainly do not want to go to that! So, yeah, today was pretty much uneventful. Hope all of your days went a lot better! Au revoir, loves!

I hope you dance.

I just read Kelts' blog, and it brought tears to my eyes. I still can't believe what he has become either. He has left his band, which were his REAL friends, behind for people who are ruining his life. They are not his true "friends" if they treat him like that. The guy that I met and want to remember is the one who loves Wall-E stickers and Olive Garden. I loved the guy that didn't believe that drugs were needed, who loved seeing peace signs and hugs in a huge crowd, and who had a smile that was so darn cute and contagious. I hope that he finds a way out of this horrible rut that he's in and realizes who his true friends are. My prayers are with you, darling. I love you.


I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give fate a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their years and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their years and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their years and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

"Where everyday is a Great Adventure."

Wow. What a hectic and fun-filled day today was! My ankles are killing me from walking so much. Me, my momma, my aunt, and my cousin went to Six Flags today and it was beyond awesome. I braved the Batman roller coaster, and I am so proud of myself. It was so much fun! Still, my fave parts of the day have to be the dolphin show and the roaring rapids ride. I got drenched! I love our annual trip to Six Flags. Especially this year. It took my mind off of my boys breaking up for a whole day. I even wore my "Reinvent Love" shirt to show that I am still a die-hard Panic fan, even though now I have two bands to support. Well, I feel like a total scuzball right now, so I guess I'll hop in the shower and head off to bed. Au revoir, loves!

"Life is a highway, I wanna ride it all night long"

After a very good sleep last night, I've finally come to a decision. Maybe this is for the best. Maybe being apart will make their music even more amazing than it already is. The only thing that I'm certain of is that I will love each of them forever.

Brendon- the life of the band. I love your never-ending energy and your gorgeous voice. No matter how down I feel or what kind of situation I'm in, you never fail to make me smile. Your love for animals, your loud and obnoxious (in a good way!) nature, and your love of Olive Garden's breadsticks are just a few of the things I love about you. You'll be fine. And remember, don't let anyone steal your animal crackers!

Jon- the eclectic sweetheart. Mr. Walker, let me use one word to describe you: AMAZING. Your loving and caring nature never ceases to amaze me. I love all your random tweets and how your home is crawling with three little creatures that I've grown to love. I'll never forget our love for the salad at Olive Garden and how we both live in states that hit below zero during the winter. I love you and always will. I'm sure you will accomplish great things. Tell Dylan, Clover, and Marley that they are always loved and that they have a great Daddy.

Spencer- the silent troublemaker. What can I say about Spencer? You are sweet, funny, loving, and a warrior on the drums! Although you didn't say much when we met, I could tell that you were the troublemaker in the band. And that's a good thing! I loved how you laughed at Jon for holding a conversation with my momma. That def made me laugh. I'm excited to see the amazing things that you and Brenny have in store for us. I'm sure you two will do great things together. And remember, keep Brendon in his place!

Ryan- the shy genius. Ryan, Ryan, Ryan. Although you've had a very rocky year, remember that I still love you. I know that you are not to blame for this separation, so don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. You write the most beautiful lyrics that I've ever heard, and I'm sure that you and Jon will make amazing music together. I still remember how your eyes lit up when my momma told you that you look like a young Paul McCartney. You really do. And I know that you will accomplish great things just like he has. I love you so much. And, just think! Now Brenny won't be able to hog the microphone like he usually does! Sorry Brenny! Now everyone will be able to hear your beautiful voice.

It's been an amazing four and a half years. Throughout those years, I've collected many beautiful memories of those four amazing boys. A fever that no one could sweat out, a psychedelic Beatles-esque album, an amazing live CD from JWalk's hometown, a gorgeous bag signed by your talented little hands, a pair of sunglasses with tiny mementos on them, three amazing concerts that I am proud to say that I went to, a meet-and-greet that seemed to last only minutes but gave me a lifetime of memories, and a statement that says it all. I love you guys. Although you will be separated, I cannot wait to hear all the amazing music that will come out of it. Panic at the Disco will live on in my heart forever. And, I can't say this enough, I love you guys.

"WE MUST REINVENT LOVE!"

I died on Monday, July 6th, 2009 at 12:54 pm.

This just HAS to be a joke. My boys just CANNOT break up. Their third album is almost finished and they are on tour this summer. I thought something funky was going on when I saw only pictures of either Brendon and Spencer together or Jon and Ryan together. But, still, I may hopefully be wrong. It is impossible for Brendon and Spencer to be PATD without Jon and Ryan. And it is impossible for Jon and Ryan to go on without Brendon and Spencer. Zack, you're supposed to protect them! Help them figure out that what they're doing is a huge mistake! I'm just gonna pray that this is a cruel, sick joke. If it is, I'll forgive them but I will be a bit ticked off.

I'm overwhelmed!

Okay, so I'm home by myself today because I still don't feel all that great. So, instead of just sitting on the couch all day reading magazines, I decided to do a little research on what I need to bring to college. You should see the list I made! I really have to get to a Container Store one of these days to get all this junk because August 23rd will be here before I know it! I'm watching Full House right now so I guess that's all I have to say. Au revoir loves!

Sometimes I hate being a girl.

Today I was visited by someone very late. And, for me, when that happens, it's usually hell. That is exactly what today was. Ugh. I have never felt this bad in a long time. Hopefully I'll be much better tomorrow. Anyway, aside from that, today was okay. Me and Meesh got our nails done, which kind of relaxed me a bit. But then, we were supposed to meet her so called "best friend" for dinner. So, we waited and waited, but he never called. I wasn't surprised, but I kinda thought that he would be different this time. Boy, was I wrong! I think she should just give up on him for good, but I know that that's very hard for her because they've known each other for so long and she doesn't just want to throw all that away. I just wish that he was nicer to her because she is truly the only friend that he has. I just hate seeing her so hurt and upset every time he promises to do something with her but never does. Hopefully one day, he'll realize who his real best friend is. Okay, that was my little speech for the night. I'm about to crash and end this day. Au revoir loves.

I think I was supposed to be born a fish.

I love the fourth of July. Why? One word: swimming. I love to swim. As soon as I get in the water, I never want to get out! I mean sure it's annoying to get wrinkly fingertips and kinky looking hair, but it is totally worth it! Swimming, much like dancing, is just something that has always come very naturally to me. I think one of the reasons that I love it so much is that my grandpa taught me how. Every time I jump into a pool or the ocean, all I can remember is how he used to hold me because I was too scared to paddle on my own. It just brings back so many beautiful memories of us together. I miss him so much and not a day goes by that I don't think of him. Okay, I'm gonna make myself cry! Anyway, today was fun. I hope all of your picnics and fireworks were great as well. Au revoir, loves!

Pizza to go!

Today is finally Sukie's grad party! I can't wait to see her again! However, no matter how much fun we have tonight, it will only remind me how far apart we'll be in a matter of weeks. These past few years have gone by in a flash. I still can't believe it's been five years since we were sitting in advanced algebra (us nerds!) giggling and having so much fun. Those precious memories will live in my heart forever. Sukie is the best friend that anyone could ever hope to have. I even remember doing a best friends project in 8th grade English. I remember it well. Trucker hats, Lizzie McGuire, and lip gloss. Things that may seem random to others but are special to us. I love you, girl. And, no matter how far away we may be, our bond will stay strong. Remember, "supercalifragilisticexpealidocious is the only way to describe it."

You don't have to let go.

I feel like such a rat. One of my best friends who was also my Kairos leader has left for the Navel Academy. And I didn't even say goodbye. I just looked in my phone and saw that he left me a text message that brought me to tears. Those Kairos moments will be kept in my heart forever as well. I promise I will write to you, love. All my love goes out to you. Good luck with all that you do and I hope to see you again in the future. I love you. Never forget that.

New Perspective.

Finally! Some proof that my boys are actually doing something about the new album! Their newest single, "New Perspective," is slated to come out toward the middle of August. I cannot wait. Peety posted a lyric on his twitter, and I can already tell that it's going to be very catchy! Anyway, I've been very bored these past few days. I've been watching my fave childhood movie, "That Darn Cat" over and over and it is amazing that I still find the nosy next door neighbor so funny! Anyway, I'm going to go clean out all my old school books to get ma mere off my back! Love you! Au revoir, loves.