Wednesday, March 4, 2009

I have to try and see the silver lining in this.

I want you to be blissfully happy. That's all I ever want to see. If you're happy with her, then I suppose I am too. It'll just be hard for me to accept this. If she ends up hurting you like the other whores before her, I will be devastated enough for the both of us. So, just be careful. Don't give her all of your heart just yet. Give it time. If you see that she truly loves you for you (who wouldn't?)then congratulations. You have finally found someone who appreciates all your kindness and love.

Today was a little better than yesterday. I found the energy to haul it off to school, and I'm kinda glad I did. There have been a lot of things that happened today that took my mind off my pain for a little while.
*I was able to work on my painting
*I meditated (which I found to be very relaxing)
*I was reminded how much my besties care about me (Love you guys!)
*My English teacher always makes me laugh
*My TB shot (although that kinda hurt, too!)
*Taco Bell!
I'm slowly starting to get better, but I still can't bring myself to go to dance. I really want to because we are still learning our recital dance, but I just don't feel up to it this week. Hopefully, I'll be able to continue next week. I think what I really need to get myself back on track is a night out with my girls to see "Shopaholic" and to drown our sorrows in a melted brownie sundae at Uno's! Yum!

I still love him. That will never change. It just hurts to see him with someone else. But, I truly do wish him all the happiness in the world! Love you!

1 comment:

  1. i knew i could count on ur blog to make me laugh! and ill go get some brownie sundaes with you to drown our sorrows on im in that need to..friday baby girl!